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you are mediumorchid
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Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.
Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.
Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
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| 08.20.04 (12:20 pm) [edit] |
I have days like this. Where for no reason I feel empty and alone and fed up. Anger boils beneath the surface and I feel exhausted beyond belief. Pregnancy multiplies this but it is not something new. I feel so low today. I slept well so I am not sure why I stepped out of bed the wrong side. Does there need to be a reason?
I spent an hour in the bath this morning but couldn't relax. My husband called a few times - as he always does but I didn't stay on the phone line long as I knew I would start an argument for no good reason.
My lower back aches and my hip hurts from the walking I did yesterday. It frustrates me that I don't find pregnnacy as easy as most people. I never seem to reach that 'blooming' stage in the middle months.
It seems that the more I clean the dirtier the house gets and it is all getting on top of me. So much needs doing but with the children home from school there is little point. I wish it was Saturday. I wish Lloyd was home. He calms me down and entertains me - knows how to cheer me up and if all else fails he makes a wonderful cuppa! Thank goodness it is Friday and in 3 hours he will be on his way home for the weekend.
My children are so good and don't desrve to hera my yell or moan - sweep the floor, empty the dishwasher, run the vacuum round for me. They don't complain and I'll treat them afterwards - they can have some change and go to the store for something nice - a slurpy or something equally bad for them ;)
I feel lonely today - so lonely - but I don't know why - I chose not to have anyone over today - I cose to have a quiet day at home. So why do I feel like everyone else is outside having such a great time while I am home wiping dead flies from the windowsills? And then I look again an hour later and there are more dead flies! Where do they all come from?
Perhaps it is because yesterday was such a great day - we had such fun at the penny carnival and picnic and I was ona real high and exhausted from having fun! Perhaps today is the after-effects of that busy day - my mood has dropped and I am physically and emotionally tired from it all.
I have days like this - I should know by now how to cope. I should know that this too shall pass. That tomorrow is another day...................and all those cliches.
But for now all I want is my husband to walk through the door and hold me and make me a soothing cup of tea.
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