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Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.
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| pussy stretched out |
| 05.30.04 (11:19 am) [edit] |
This is how my lovely lazy kitten spends her evenings - stretched out on the sofa in her favourite spot :)
Quite different to the way I found her this morning attached to the mozzy screen of my bedroom window!!!
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| motivation |
| 05.30.04 (10:04 am) [edit] |
I haven't posted in a couple of days - I just ahven't found the motivation to write anything.
I am trying to focus on this blog despite the noise coming from the kitchen where my 4 children are playing a VERY loud game of Uno. They sound like they are really enjoying the game. Lloyd is working but tells me he will leave work by 12:30 at the latest - I hope so :(
So what has been happening in my world???? It has been raining since Friday lunchtime - non stop fairly heavy rain. Alberta really needs this rain and because it happens so rarely I don't mind it - having lived in Scotland and the UK, I am used to endless rain.
I was woken at 6am this morning by my cat Bailey shreiking at me. We have a deck off of our bedroom so I opened the door expecting her to come in but she wasn't there! I opened the curtain and she scared the crap out of me lol - she was attached at the top of the window by the mosquito screen - staring at me - below her was a 15 foot or so drop!! She must have literally dived from the deck onto the mozzy screen and then was clinging on for dear life!! She couldn't get off so I had to dismantle the window and remove the screen from the inside. Bailey is a crazy crazy kitten!
I still feel so sick (thanks again for all the kind comments everyone!!) at bedtime each night I just tell myself that I made it through another day! It helps!
Yesterday despite the rain I passed my driving road test. I can now legally and officially drive again!!! Yay - life can get back to normal as from tomorrow - going to my groups, meeting up with friends - taking Abby swimming and generally getting out of the house! I needed to pass before the school holidays thats for sure!
Well, I have told everyone about the pregnancy now except the children and we plan to tell them today over dinner. I hope no one chokes. I know Chris won't be too pleased - he still wishes he was an only child!!!
I have to make lots of thank you cards for the teachers and also a Fathers Day card for Dad - it needs to go in the mail tomorrow.
We drove down to Michaels yesterday - I had a 50% off coupn so got myself a new scrapbook album - I have 8 now :) $10 was too good a price to not get it! I ran into Kerry there - just typical - I was having a bad hair day and my jeans button was undone because they are too tight already - I must have looked quite a sight! Mind you she looked a real mess too lol! She asked for any news (she always wants gossip to pass on to the other AB Moms) and I didn't mention anything except to say I passed my driving test!
We also went to Thyme Maternity and I got some great trousers you pull the waist right in so they fit me now but will also fit at the end. They are dark navy and like a soft thin denim. My first time in a Canadian maternity store.
I just want to sleep :( so tired.
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| hey hotblogs!!!! |
| 05.28.04 (1:45 pm) [edit] |
I was number 15 in the hot blogs this morning and now I have gone!!! Where did I go??? Is my blog so useless it just gets dropped totally??????? :( I am feeling lonely and unloved ;(
and still sick - please all cheer me up and make me feel happy again ;) comment and make my day ;)
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| trailer parks and thunder storms |
| 05.28.04 (6:34 am) [edit] |
Friday is here again. I'm glad. Another great thing? they forecast thunder storms today - the first of the year - I LOVE thunder storms. We go outside and stand on the deck or in the garage and watch the rain and lightening. Last year we raced a storm to Elk Island Park, ran into the shelter and watched the storm head towards us across the lake. It made for some amazing photographs.
I guess the only downside of thunderstorms here in AB is the risk of tornadoes. It seems incredible to be living somewhere where there is a significant risk of a bad tornado. The city I live in was partially destroyed a few years back by a big tornado - a few people died and the trailer park especially was destroyed.
Trailer parks - I don't understand them! I keep asking Lloyd to come with me and have a look around the show home trailer! He won't set foot in a trailer park - he is such a snob! I have two friends that live in trailers - Psycho Lisa who I have mentioned before, and Celine who seems so unlikely to live in a trailer!!!
What I don't understand about trailer living is that you have to buy the trailer - they sell here for about $50,000 and the banks will no longer give a mortgage so you ahve to take a personal loan to buy it. Then you have to pay ground rent FOR LIFE. My friends pay $350 a month ground rent on top of the loan for the trailer - so why bother??? They rarely sell when you want to move home! And you are paying as much each month as you would on a mortgage of a small house!! And like I said - trailers are the most likely homes to be totally damaged in a tornado - and though the threat of that is minimal - it does happen.
I still want to go down and have a look around one though as I have never been in a trailer. I've never been in an RV either and we keep meaning to go and have a look at some RV's too. Lloyd and I hope to have an RV one day and travel across Canada and America. But Lloyd is a snob and won't have an RV until he can afford one of those amazing top of the line RV's which he never will afford with 5 children - so we are destined to never have our trip!
Shawna came over yesterday - I had a good day yesterday - wasn't feeling too sick - I also had this urge to clean and tidy. I emptied Susannahs closet of all the toys and threw out 2 sacks full of junk! I had asked Susannah to hang all her clean laundry on hangers on Wednesday night. So yesterday morning I go to her closet and indeed all the clean clothes have been put on hangers - and then thrown on top of the toys!!!!! ??????? What on earth did she do that for?????
So yes as I said, Shawna came over. We took the girls to the swings and then walked them to see the gees and baby goslings at the pond before coming home and sitting out on the deck - the girls sat on the blanket and I blew huge bubbles for them to watch. It was nice chatting - we talked about so much - Uncles getting married in Toga's, Bear attacks and where to find bears in the Rockies, 80's music..............oh and pregnancy and birth of course lol! Shawna has an 8 month old and I am pregnant so the topic was bound to come up!
Thanks so much to everyone for the congrats you added to my comments :) I am still feeling sick a lot and I also made a blunder - I thought I was due February but I made a mistake and am actually due in January - around the 7th. Please let it be born before the 20th!!! We already have three female Aquarians in this family - It's not fair to make the men of the house live with another!!! ;)
Problem is that I started a group at yahoogroups for moms due in February next year!!! But I'm not due in February next year - duh!!! roflmao!!!
Lloyd is so excited about having another baby. He loves babies.
I have my road test tomorrow finally - If I pass then I can drive again at last and won't be stuck at home any more!!! Please please send good vibes to me that I pass my test. I have been so bored stuck at home the last month! I can go back to my groups and go to the mall and take Abby to the indoor playground and to the swimming pool, the better playgrounds, pick the kids up from school and take them swimming, go to my scrapbook store more :) go walking with Shawna elsewhere than here!!
I realise that today it has been two weeks since Mandy has bothered to contact me - I haven't emailed her since - I sent her some emails and an e-card that I KNOW she got but she has never bothered to reply. I hope she is doing ok.
On Tuesday next week I am going out with the girls :) Three girls from out of town are coming here to Ed for various reasons - we all belong to a scrapbooking group and we are all meeting up to go on a tour of the local scrapbook stores and then heading to Olive Garden for dinner :) It's my payday too so how lucky is that???? I am really looking forward to meeting everyone - I know a few of them from my crop nights and all of them via email - but have never met most of them.
Well I promised Abigail she could play on the Dora The Explorer website so I have to close now and let her have the computer.
Have a great day everyone - please send me a comment :)
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| bed covers and under the table |
| 05.26.04 (10:29 am) [edit] |
I am feeling so crappy right now - have spent the morning in bed trying to keep my breakfast down. Poor Abigail is so so bored. She got a felt tip pen and coloured all over my bed linen :( She then went downstairs and got the big bottle of OJ out of the firdge and poured it all over a plate on the coffee table - the plat of course wasn't big enough and so it ahs gone all over the coffee table and through one of the little cracks in the wood through to the carpet :(
I am not coping well with chores this week - I hate it when my house is a mess and I feel everything is on top of me and I can't deal with it all :( so this is all I need :(
I can't get cross with her though - she's two and she's bored :(
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| My lunchbox!!! |
| 05.26.04 (10:11 am) [edit] |
I found the exact same lunchbox as my muppet one on Ebay!!!:
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How cool is that lunchbox????????? Woohoo :)
I love remembering my childhood - I had a GREAT childhood :) I also love that Lloyd remembers my childhood too and I his - because we grew up together :)
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| Lunch box memories |
| 05.26.04 (9:52 am) [edit] |
I was watching Unwrapped this morning and it was the top 5 best foods in lunchboxes!! Number 1 was the lunchbox itself! It was a really good topic and they went to the museum of lunchboxes - they were saying how lunchboxes bring back memories of friends and school and field trips etc etc.
I had never really thought about it before but they are so right! I remember my school lunchboxes so well. Between 1977 and 1981 I had a small blue tupperware lunchbox with a clear white lid and my Mum put my name on it using a piece of plaster (like white bandaid on a roll - the rough fabric kind not the plasticy stuff they have these days)
There was a cupboard in the long hallway of the school that we all had to put our lunch in - I remember the smell of the cupboard and the feel of my lunchbox. I would have a sandwich, a small bar of chocolate like a penguin bar or something and a packet of crisps (chips) - my favourites were frazzles. Sometimes a piece of my Mums home made fruit cake or chocolate cake wrapped in clingfilm. I HATED jam sandwiches - by lunchtime the jame had soaked through the bread and turned it pink :( I did like peanut butter though or cheese and my favourite which I was occasionally allowed was salt and pepper!!! Mmmmmmmm
We went to Florida on holiday in 1980 and met a family there from Ohio. They sent us a huge parcel from America for Christmas that year - some gorgeous Christmas tree ornaments and a lunch box for my sister and I. I had a metal suitcase style Muppets lunchbox. It was black and green and gold with Kermit and Miss Piggy on it :) Inside was a matching thermos flask. It was so cool because they didn't have things like that in England then. I saw the muppets lunchbox on the show this morning - they showed it in the museum! Turns out that metal lunchboxes were banned in schools in the states in 1985 and they stopped making them. By that time I had moved onto a plastic Annie one lol and probably on to a plain tupperware one again!
I remember walking home from school one summer day with my muppet box - I stopped for a drink near the field by the church - there was a horse in there. I filled the lid of my thermos with juice and held it up for the horse (?????) and the horse took it and started chewing it! I was so scared it would swallow it and die!!! We eventually got it out and I took this very chewed lid home to my Mum who was NOT happy lol!
Anyway the show this morning was a nice reminder of my childhood and how even as something as simple as a lunchbox can hold such memories! I know my Dad is constantly looking for a specific OXO tin like the one he took his sandwiches to school in as a boy!
What kind of lunchbox did you have?
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| Half Moon |
| 05.25.04 (1:48 pm) [edit] |
Here is the layout from our trip to Half Moon Lake last week - I finished the layout yesterday.
I am feeling ill and tired - constant sickness and feeling really crummy hence the fact I haven't blogged for a couple of days - just not in the mood. I am eating toast and scrapbooking and sleeping - that kind of sums up my life right now :(
I'm also very depressed as on Saturday I have to buy maternity clothes - I am 6 weeks pregnant and my clothes don't fit already - this must be the delights of having number 5.
I am thrilled about the baby - honestly - really - just feeling so yucky and horrid right now it is hard to seem enthusiastic :(
forgot to upload piccy first so will add it in a second!
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| alien attack and infidelity |
| 05.23.04 (6:12 pm) [edit] |
Its been an odd day from start to finish. Last night I had two odd dreams. the first one I was on the phone when there was a big crash outside - like a plane had crashed - then I realised the house was on fire so we grabbed everything we could and got out of the house (it was the house I grew up in as a child) but when we got outside I realised it was a space ship that had crashed and these red little alien things were killing, attacking and stealing. They looked a bit lie those 'useless blobs' - like the Canadian one I have below but they were all red and evil lol!
Then the next dream I had was that Lloyd was getting married to Louise and i was supposed to go to the wedding - but he was still seeing me on the sly! I was so angry and upset and he didn't seem to see what the issue was - typical man roflmao!!! So he bought me a house next door to the one he was going to be living in with his wife - who didn't know he was having sex with me!!! On the morning of his wedding!!!!
Ok, so anyway - woke up and Abby and Lloyd played the under the covers game which always freaks me out - I hate to have my feet touched and hate to be tickled and basically they dive underneath the covers and punce on parts of me to make me jump and tickle me :) Abigail shrieks with laughter! My Dad phoned and chatted with Abigail and then I said hi to him and chatted to my Mum. So weird that Lloyd was making bacon sandwiches for brunch for us and my Mum and Dad were making their supper over in the UK!!
Mum was saying that she is going to spend a week in a cottage in Yorkshire with my sister next week but that she doesn't want to go near where I used to live or anywhere she has been with the children because it will upset her too much that they aren't there. She hasn't seen them for almost 2 years and she is just so excited about coming to stay in a few months.
The bacon sandwiches were just gorgeous - and the smell wafting up was lovely :)
How did I end up so lucky with such a great man in my life????? I sat in the car this afternoon while Lloyd was filling it with gas - I watched him in the rear view mirror - he didn't know - and I was just thinking to myself how lucky I am - I have my Lloyd. He has always been my Lloyd - since I was 8 :) I am so gload we ended up together. I can't wait to grow old with him. I could never see myself growing old with my ex - I have no idea why. But with Lloyd I just know we will grow old together. His fiancee left him a few years back and whenever I think about that I just think 'You stupid cow' because she has no idea what she gave up!!! I am so glad she did but I also feel sorry for her in a way because I know what she is missing out on. I love that Lloyd gets broody when he sees babies. I love the way he is sad every time Abigail reaches a new milestone because it is one step further from her babyhood. I love that he can't throw anything of hers away - like her soothers and shoes. I love how safe and secure and loved he makes me feel.
Ok, enough of the mushy stuff!
So we surprised the kids and took them to Lets Play after lunch. It was so quiet there - empty!! Ideal!! Abigail loved being big enough to go on the big apparatus. The other three took turns to be with her and they all had a great time.
Lloyd did some research for his business idea and I sat and read :) Then we gave the kids $2.50 in quarters each and they went in the arcade part. They collecetd a lot of tickets - Chris had 80, Laurie 45 and Susie 25 and then Lloyd hit the jackpot on one machine with Abigails coins and they won 270 tickets!!! They all chose the toys they wanted and Abby got a new bag of marbles (which are now all over the floor for me to hurt my feet on!!!)
Once the kids are in bed we are going to sneak next door and have a look in Gino's house he is building - they hope to move in in September - we have been watching them build it so it will be interesting to take a sneaky look inside. I think his wife is a sahm. That will be nice - there are so few around here.
Lloyd and I have decided we have to head somewhere warmed - today I have been looking at houses in Vancouver, Vancouver Island, South Carolina and Florida (ok yes sometimes we go from one extreme to another but neither of us can deal with snow in May for much longer!)
When we got back from Lets Play, the kids went to the park and Lloyd and I shot to Sobeys quickly. Then once dinner was in the oven I soaked in the bath for 30 minutes while Abigail played on the computer and Lloyd worked on the basement.
Dinner is over and the kids are showering ready for bed. We all curled up for a while and watched a bit of 'Theres Something About Mary'. The kids thought the dog on speed was funny :)
Aunt Flo has still not arrived and I still feel quite sick all day long. I will give it another week and take another test. I swear something is up as I can't do any of my trousers up - my jeans or anything. Three weeks ago I could fit into any of them :(
Goodnight all! Hope your weekend has gone well.
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| Ironic |
| 05.22.04 (5:21 pm) [edit] |
How typical is that - my last two posts were called
Supermodel
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Fat
oh how my mood can change ;)
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| Fat |
| 05.22.04 (5:17 pm) [edit] |
How have I spent my day? Mmmm - it started in the best way possible ;) followed by bath and then Lloyd brought me up toast as I was feeling sick again :(
We went to Tims for breakfast which is always nice. I had a croissant and coffee. Abigail ran about the place driving us nuts - she loves to put stuff in the garbage and also push the highchairs around the place - she doesn't understand there are people walking around with hot coffee!
We went to the mall and Lloyd had his hair cut while me and the girls hit the dollar store and Chapters - I still can't decide what book to read next. Everything out there seems to be hostorical. Has anyone read Crow Lake???? I'm not sure about it. Or 'Life of Pi' or 'The Five People You Meet in Heaven' or that book called Amanda(someone)@home about a sahm of two kids who starts feeling invisible.
After Lloyd met up with us we drove to the scrapbook store and I bought a few things (the cutest pine tree shaped brads!!!!) and then we went to Totem - the girls march straight in now and get their popcorn. What will they do whent he basement is finished and Daddy no longer needs to go to Totem?????
Then finally home!!!! I sat on the deck and read my scrapbooking magazine and drank my tea while Lloyd prepared my little flower bed for the sunflowers and pumpkins etc and the children built ramps with pieces of wood from the building site. I also did some scrapbooking and took pictures of my recent layouts - mainly the Elk Island Park layouts.
Then the kids went off to the park for a while and Abigail fell asleep on the sofa. Lloyd was working in the basement and I soaked in the bath with my mag again :)
Got out, made dinner, ate dinner and here I sit catching up with my blog and emails and still feeling very very sick.
Oh and we did another test (didn't get your message in time Islandartist) so we bought a single test in Zellers - and we still can't decide if it is positive or negative as the line was quite feint. Lloyd says it is negative though. Is he ever wrong???? Still no Aunt Flo. still feeling very sick. Still getting horrid heart burn. Still have boobs that hurt when cold ...................but sometimes i get these symptoms with PMS although not this bad - so still undecided :( Lloyd says the line woul look like the test line if it was positive and although it can be feint I also know that if I am feeling this sick then surely the HCG levels must be quite high and would show more......................
But with Island Artists portrait of me with the little heart beating for the baby we want - maybe thats a good omen ;) Even if I do have to shave my head to get pregnant ;)
The depressing thing is NONE of my clothes fit. I have one pair of horrid all stretched out of shape baggy cropped trousers that should be thrown away - they fit - but nothing else does and that really depresses me because just a couple of weeks ago - 3 weeks ago I bought myself 3 pairs of size 11 capris and some new tshirts from Cotton Ginny and I loved them - and now they won't do up and they are skin tight across my ass! Of course Lloyd would sing 'I like big butts and I cannot lie' from Shrek lol but I don't want a big butt :( It was big enough already.
So I am desperately hoping I am pregnant and bloated and NOT just fat because I eat Chocolate cream pie from sobeys like its going out of fashion!!!!!
I hope theres a good movie on tonight so we can curl up and watch that and I can be distracted for a while.
I wnat to go and live by the sea - somewhere in the States - somewhere where it is warm enough to swim in the pool all year long. I miss the sound of the ocean. I hate the long winters here. I need warmth.
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| supermodel!!! |
| 05.22.04 (4:01 pm) [edit] |
OK so I am thrilled and privileged to have been chosen by Island Artist as a model for one of her FAB portraits!! I had to sit still for hours while she created this work of art.
Please check it out on her blog (link to the left as I have no idea how to add a link :)
It should be on there some time this evening ;) so if it isn't on yet keep checking :)
Hopefully I will find time to write more later.
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| unclear clear blue |
| 05.21.04 (8:10 pm) [edit] |
Lloyd bought one of the new clearblue pregnancy tests. It is one of the ones with the blue cap. I did the test and we can't tell if it is positive or negative - stupid test - it really isn't clear considering its called 'CLEAR blue' lol in fact its really UNCLEAR!!!!! grrrr another $10 down the drain.
No doubt Aunt Flo will arrive tomorrow anyway and I will have to take a trek to the medicentre to see why I am throwing up all day and all evening.
Lloyd got a blanket for me this evening and put it over me to help me warm up. I just can't get warm.
Abigail has been stuffing her crusts from her toast through the vent bits above the fire - we turned the fire on this evening and a horrid burning smell came out - so we had a look and found all her crusts shoved up there and we can't get them out :(
It's late - I'm going to bed. Goodnight all.
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| Do you believe? |
| 05.21.04 (8:06 pm) [edit] |
For an hour a week I believe in God - or the idea of God. I have really enjoyed the series Joan of Arcadia. The finale was tonight.
I love the idea that the little things we do each day can send ripples out into the world and create good. Kind of like if you smile at a stranger, and that person smiles at someone else and then perhaps the person that person smiles at was feeling really depressed and suicidal but because someone has takent he time to smile or be nice they DIDN'T harm themself............... I know kind of goofy thinking but well, you get the idea.
Really though - the rest of the week I am atheist. I really don't believe there is a higher power or a creator or that we are all part of Gods plan. I have witnessed too many things in my life to believe there could be a God so cruel.
What I do believe is that if there is an 'ever after' or something after this life, then faith will not matter. What matters is what kind of a person you are - how you live your life, what you learn and how you treat others. I live by my own rules. I believe you should treat others in the way you wish to be treated.
I don't belive in God but I do believe that how we treat others, and how we react to every day life can have a greater effect - beyond anything we can comprehend.
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| I hate ginger |
| 05.21.04 (12:15 pm) [edit] |
Crystalized ginger is just the most disgusting thing ever but here I sit munching away on it. My Mum loves it and eats it for pleasure YUCK is all I can say! The children have all tried it and hate it - Chris managed to keep it in his mouth a while until it started burning and he spat it in the toilet lol!
The children have walked to the 7-11 for some treats - I gave them $3 each and instructions not to buy gum lol! They also have a little extra to get Abigail some smarties or something.
Oh I was supposed to call Lloyd back and I forgot - oops!!!
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| cheeky monkey |
| 05.21.04 (11:26 am) [edit] |
Here is the scrapbook page I did this morning :)
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| sick sick sick |
| 05.21.04 (11:23 am) [edit] |
I feel so ill still. Really really sick :( this is awful :(
Laurie and Susie have been at the park all morning - I told them to come back when they were hungry - it's about 1:20pm and they just got back.
Chris stayed home and studied the data on the environment canada website lol and he also made a batch of blueberry muffins which they will now all eat for lunch! He tided his room up and put things on the new shelves that Lloyd made up for him last night :)
Abigail has been following Chris around, playing and watching Treehouse. I have been scrapbooking and feeling sorry for myself as I feel so sick :( My tummy is bloated and it hurts too :( I feel yucky :(
Abby has a thing about taking her clothes off - she is running around with no top on again now!
I am a bit pissed off as Lloyd knows how ill I am feeling but he is working this weekend. Its the holiday weekend and he said he wasn't working at all - but may work monday and have a day off during the week. Now he is saying he will work saturday or sunday and have monday off. So basically it messes everything up :( I am so tired and feel so ill - I live for the weekends when he is home so I am kind of fed up with him working every single weekend.
Yes the money is good but money isn't everything
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| TGIF |
| 05.21.04 (8:09 am) [edit] |
I love Friday - I love that it means the weekend is almost here. I love that this weekend especially Lloyd is not working at all and he may even have Monday off. Its a long weekend here in Canada - Victoria Day weekend to celebrate Queen Victoria's birthday. I find it funny that they celebrate that here in Canada but we never even heard it mentioned back home in England!
I felt ok when I woke up but after about 30 minutes I started feeling sick again. Lloyd bought me a big bag of crystalized ginger last night and munching on that helps even though it's disgusting stuff. But then eating helps - I don't feel sick while I am eating - geez I am going to end up the size of a house!
My tbucks are back :) comments still aren't :(
Last night we drove over to Totem - Abby loves going there for the free popcorn - its the best popcorn ever and you can just constantly help yourself!! We checked out the mozzy screen to see if Lloyd is fittting it right and we bought a couple of bags of potting soil for the pumpkins.
We then went to the scrapbook store - I bought a magazine and some cardstock and some monkey stickers - oh and some fibers which will be ideal for some layouts I'm doing.
We had chicken pies, home made mashed potato and mixed vegeatbles for dinner and then after dinner I soaked in the bath with my magazine for a while - I felt so sick :( Then I chalked a picture of a monkey for the layout I am doing of Abigail. We started watching Edtv but we went to bed half way through. Lloyd massaged my shoulders and back for me - he's fab at it!!! And of course that lead further lol! It didn't cure the sickness but was a nice distraction for a while ;)
I still can't drive so we are stuck home today but I will give the kids some money after lunch and they can go to the 7-11 for some treats. Tonight if it's dry maybe we can go to Broadmoor Lake for a walk or to the river valley or something.
Or swimming.............we shall see - I tend to feel worse in the evenings so we shall wait and see!
I got some mince out of the freezer - think I shall do it with a pasta sauce, pasta and some salad or crusty bread. Lloyds having lunch out today at work so I will wait to see what he has then first.
Breakfast time I think. It's after 10am - I should eat something.
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| sick sick sick |
| 05.20.04 (10:26 am) [edit] |
I have felt sick for days now and this morning I have thrown up twice!!!! What could it be???????????????? ;)
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| 05.20.04 (7:26 am) [edit] |
ON Tuesday night at Elk Abigail was playing on the climbing frame and slides etc - she came up to the bars and I asked for a kiss so this picture is her blowing me one of her funny kisses - but she looks like a monkey in a cage ;)
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| my last few days |
| 05.20.04 (6:58 am) [edit] |
Well, I am putting faith into tblog that this message will make it to my blog. I lost 600 tbucks during the change of servers :( Not the end of the world but still...........
So, Tuesday evening - Lloyd came home from work early and we packed up and drove over to Elk Island Park for a bbq. It was the first time we had been there since the fire that caused well over 30km sq to be destroyed. Basically the whole of the right hand side of the park from Highway 16 up almost to Astotin Lake was black - it still smells strongly. The frogs were very noisy so I guess a lot of the wildlife survived. It is heartbreaking to see the damage though. Yes they often have controlled burns but not like this - this was started by a fool with a cigarette butt on Hayburger trail. So thanks to them the bison trail, and various other trails are closed.
We drove up to Astotin Lake and the children played on the playground while we prepared the bbq. Then we had a visitor - a lonely bison was about 10 yards from us munching away. I waited for it to walk off a little way before getting a picture of it :) I will add that later when I can be sure tblog is working properly!
I got my first two mozzy bites of the year :( one on my ankle and one on my upper arm :( AND I had used spray :( ggggrrrrr why do they love me so much?? I hear they like certain blood types - I guess A+ is their favourite!!! Last year I had 13 bites on one day and that was after using spray too! I am told that after 4 years of being here you build up a little resistence - only another 3 summers to suffer! We don't get mozzies back home - not like these at least!
After hotdogs we all roasted marshmallows and the children played for a while - the boys had a go at chopping wood with Lloyds axe - they enjoyed that - it's the first year Lloyd has let them so I guess they feel very grown up :) I love that Lloyd lets them try out his tools - they love using the hammer and nails and he has shown them how to use them properly - even abigail will have a go with hammer and nails and knows what to do!!
We came home and the children showered and went to bed and Lloyd and I sat out on the deck with a cup of tea chatting. I have felt sick the last few evenings but it was nice outside in the fresh air for a while.
Had a wierd dream last night about my ex. He was in one of his arrogant smug moods (yuck!) and I was finding out that he had had lots of affairs while being married to me (he didn't actually lol!) and one of them was with my dentist!!!! lol - my Canadian dentist!! Too funny! He had sex in a bar with her!!! Nice huh??? Why do I have such weird dreams???
Last night (Wednesday) Lloyd finished work early again and we drove to the farmers market in town - the first one of the year. It was fun looking at all the stalls and trying all the different foods - bison meat and perogies etc. we bought a raspberry pie which we will have for dinner tonight. I also bought 2 dozen perogies - 12 of cheddar and bacon and 12 of shepherds pie. I tried a few others too - tex mex perogies are wonderful but the kids would hate them - and she also does a fabulous dill and ricotta one but she had sold out so I shall get some next week! Mmmmmmm so good. I bought some hand knitted/ crocheted dishcloths - they were $1 each and in the prettiest colours - far too pretty for dishcloths so I bought them as blakets for Susie's Barbies!!!
I bought the boys some popcorn.
We had corn on the cob with the perogies - I love eating corn from the cob - mmm with a little butter and salt and pepper mmmmmmm
Yesterday was a bl**dy awful day!!! I opened the fridge and all this blood red liquid ran out from everywhere - the fruit in the ziplock bags that Lloyd was defrosting had leaked everywhere. I have washed and washed the floor and it is still sticky. I cleaned the fridge out Tuesday and had to do it all again yesterday :( I couldn't believe it.
So I boiled up the fruit and made jam and put it in jars - so we have many jars of raspberry and strawberry jam in the fridge now - made from fruit we grew last year. So I had to clear all the kitchen up and then I was about to sit down when Abigail walked in and was covered in what looked like blood :( She had helped herself to a tube of greasy sticky glittery lip gloss from Susannahs rooma nd had poured it all over the carpet and all over herself and all over Susies toys and then it was on her hands and there were sticky greasy marks all over the walls and down the stairs, all over the toilet lid and side of the bath and the sink and counter top :( It is greasy and stains and I can't get it off - I threw abby in the bath and tried to clear up the mess but it just was too much :( so I said SOD IT!!! Lloyd can do it!
So basically I spent all day yesterday clearing up one mess after another. I have washed the floor again this morning already - I hope it isn't sticky any more.
WEll, time to go get showered and dressed and have some brekky!
It's nice to be able to blog again - I needed to yesterday so badly! It's like my therapy and it calms me down.
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| slipping :( |
| 05.18.04 (1:12 pm) [edit] |
I slipped a place on hotblogs :( poo!!!! :( I was 21 and now I'm 22 :( how can that be when tblog has been down for most of the day???? ggggrrrrrr
So its been a lazy hot day. Soaking up the suns rays, sipping OJ on the deck, sitting with my feet in Abigails paddling pool, eating cherry tomatoes :) while Abigail poured cool water over my legs :) Lazy lazy day :)
My dad emailed me to say he has had problems at the dentist and has had to have stitches and all kinds of stuff :( not good :(
I cleaned the fridge today - it was nice actually because it was cool in there :) Kids aren't home for another hour - today has gone so slowly - we are going out for the evening tonight - maybe the river valley - maybe Elk. Somewhere for a bbq and the swings for the kids.
Last summer Llyoyd and I had some wonderful evenings alone down by the river valley - just walking and chatting, stopping for a drink.
I used to enjoy sitting in Princes Street Gardens in Edinburgh having coffee while the children played too. Thorntons Rhubarb Crumble ice cream cones mmmmmmmm I miss those :(
And walking along the Thames in London when I loved there. Summer evenings with bbq chicken baguette from le Jardin when we got off of the train.
Abby and I had an iced lolly (popsicle) today - mmmmm lemondae and then black cherry on the bottom of it - it was lovely - I haven't had a real popsicle for years - I normally opt for ice cream!
So I have already made the kids packed lunches for tomorrow -n then I don't have to worry about it tonight when we get home.
Lloyd is coming home early again today yay :) I love summer!!! He bought me a magazine too - the new issue of Creating Keepsakes :)
Doesn't my mind wander????????
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| sunshine and smiles |
| 05.18.04 (9:39 am) [edit] |
It's gloriously hot again today - 25c and I love it - after long winters it is wonderful to complain about the heat :) We slept with the door wide open all night last night and we were lying in bed listening to the frogs who were extremely vocal all night (calling for sex as my kids love to say lol) I love listening to things like that at night - we can hear the train go through at night too - Lloyd hates it but I love it. There are no signals on the track out here so the train has to blow it's horn every 1/4 of a mile or something.
Abigail has been out on the deck playing in her paddling pool all morning - she is coated in sun cream and smells gorgeous - of vacations and the seaside :) I love the smell of suncream.
I sat on the deck for a while reading my scrapbooking magazines and chatting to Shawna on the phone. I did a few chores today but there wasn't much to do really as I did everything yesterday - so I can laze about and relax.
Not sure when I wrote yesterday - I saw the doctor - he froze the mole again and I asked him about how ill I feel - he is sending me to the labs for hormone level checks and various other bloodworks and he said to bring forward my iron level tests too. I also told him about not being able to get pregnant - there is a 9 month waiting list for the fertility clinic atm (how ironic is 9 months?????) so he is doing a few checks at the labs with my other tests. Lloyd can checked too. He says he will wiat until my results are back before he does his 'thing' lol - how did I know he would say that????? ;)
Lloyd and I sat and watched a show last night about the crocodile bushman or whatever it was called - that was good. Then we watched Ground Force before going to bed. I want to be able to start working in the garden - stupid landscapers cancelled again :(
I finally booked my road test - they can't fit me in until Saturday 29th at 9am because of the holiday weekend :( so I can't drive for another two weeks almost :(
We went grocery shopping last night - to Safeway for a change. We didn't buy much but it still came to $143 - when almost everything we by is 2 for $5 or whatever how come se still manage to spend so much? We spent $250 in Stupidstore on Sunday!!!! I swear - money seems to just vanish :(
Christopher (11) has decided he wants to be a meteorologist!! He did wnat to be a lawyer and go to Harvard but now he wants to be a weather man (I can't stop singing John Kettley is a weather man now!!! Only Brits will know what I mean lol) anyway - we have home made barometers and the things that measure rainfall and various other weather experiments in various places around the house and garden. And it's all he talks about. Chris is 10 - almost 11 but acts more like he is in his 40's - he has always been the same way. He is 'gifted' no idea where he gets that but he has a very high IQ but he chose not to go to the local 'gifted' school and stayed at the one his brother and sister are at. I'm glad. I hate the term 'gifted' - aren't all kids gifted??? But Chris is different - I realise that. It's not normal for a 10 year old to sit in the Playplace at McD's and complain about hygiene standards and debate whether the environmental health people should close it down and how this would effect the local community etc. Or to want to go to Disneyworld for the Jazz bars!!! ????????? Chris is tiny for his age - really tiny and really clever and with an English accent and glasses - he is a nerd but he is a cool nerd and is really really popular at school - which is weird in itself!!!! Maybe it's because he's just a really nice person and very laid back - all the kids and all the staff really like him - strange!!!!
Laurie has his PATS today at school. I hope he does well - he was nervous.
Susie came home yetserday with her tooth in a little pot - her teacher had pulled it out for her - she has this weird teacher who loves to pull the kids teeth out!!!!! And the kids love it!!!
Well, I have cooled off enough to go back outside now and so I think I will put Abigail to bed for a while and go catch some more rays ;)
More later....................................
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| rollercoaster |
| 05.17.04 (1:59 pm) [edit] |
Lloyds on his way home to take me to the doctors. I have to have the mole frozen off again - 3rd time :( I wouldn't mind except for a week or so after the freezing it looks like I have a massive mosquito bite on my face!!! :( Maybe this time it won't come back :(
Its been a real up and down day today - a real rollercoaster of emotions.
The kids pay for the flyer delivery went into my account today - $40!!!! that is disgusting :( I phoned and complained and they say another $50 will go in at some point but still $90 for a months work of sheer hell :( So I have decided to lie to the kids and tell them they got paid more than they did - so they can choose something decent each to buy with their money :) They really worked hard!
So then the phone rang again and it was the school. They called to ask if we knew we had to pay for the bussing next year - it ahs always been free but because they are opening a new school in the area, from September we have to pay for bussing as we are CHOOSING not to move our children to the new school. Anyway it was going to be $325 per child with no family discount - so $975 and my ex had refused to help towards it. He can't afford to help as he is flying his whole family across the atlantic to New York for the summer (yes I am bitter but hey he doesn't help at all and has only called the kids once in almost 2 years - he says he has 'moved on' now he is remarried and has a baby and two step daughters and that means he doesn't have to think about the three children from his marriage of ten years to me)
Anyway Lloyd was willing to pay for the bussing because he knows it is important for the children to stay in the school they are in. They have been through so much in recent years - my divorce, moving to Scotland, moving to Canada etc etc and they are great kids and love their school so it really isn't fair to move them again.
Anyway so he was willing to pay for the busses - but the school called this morning to say the Principal has decided that she would like to pay for the busses for the year for all of them!! Well, not her personally but from her budget!!! How great is that???? I was in tears!! I just kept saying 'all of it???' really???? and 'thats wonderful' - not sure what the lady on the other end thought lol but I was just overcome with so much emotion!
I love my kids school - it is such a fabulous school!!! The staff are brilliant and have really welcomed my three into it. They even wrote Chris a letter and sent it via canada post to him to congratulate him on being an honour student in every subject!!!
Anyway - I think I will make up a big hamper of treats and send it in for the staff to put in the staffroom so they can have something nice with coffee for a few days :)
I still can't believe they are doing this :) We have so much to pay out for this year with the fencing and the basement and everything that we probably weren't going to have a holiday and I think we all need a break. We couldn't even afford a few nights in Calgary but now we can - we can take the kids to Drumheller and to Calloway Park and Calgary Zoo for a few days :)
Other good news today is an email from our breeder to say Hocus is in heat and will be bred this week to Tom and the pups should be born the end of July so ready the end of September to come home to us!!!
I worked hard in the house today and also decluttered a lot - I got all of downstairs looking good and I did all the ironing so Lloyd has shirts and tshirts for the week. I also walked Abby down to the little playground but she didn't like it much so we walked to the big one with the swings instead. She loves the swings - she is so much like me. She would stay in the swing all day if you let her - she kind of hangs there looking odd lol but she loves it
I cancelled my dental appt for tonight - I am just too tired. I have to go grocery shopping though and to book my driving test for Saturday and of course to the doctors in half an hour.
I will be glad when Lloyd gets home in a few minutes. I need a hug. A big big hug.
And the children will be home soon too :) I love my family. I am so lucky. I have a wonderful family. 4 amazing children all with such different personalities, and my wonderful partner Lloyd. And Bailey - our gorgeous kitten who completes the picture and makes this house feel more like a home :)
Lucky me :)
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| rollercoaster |
| 05.17.04 (1:54 pm) [edit] |
Lloyds on his way home to take me to the doctors. I have to have the mole frozen off again - 3rd time :( I wouldn't mind except for a week or so after the freezing it looks like I have a massive mosquito bite on my face!!! :( Maybe this time it won't come back :(
Its been a real up and down day today - a real rollercoaster of emotions.
The kids pay for the flyer delivery went into my account today - $40!!!! that is disgusting :( I phoned and complained and they say another $50 will go in at some point but still $90 for a months work of sheer hell :( So I have decided to lie to the kids and tell them they got paid more than they did - so they can choose something decent each to buy with their money :) They really worked hard!
So then the phone rang again and it was the school. They called to ask if we knew we had to pay for the bussing next year - it ahs always been free but because they are opening a new school in the area, from September we have to pay for bussing as we are CHOOSING not to move our children to the new school. Anyway it was going to be $325 per child with no family discount - so $975 and my ex had refused to help towards it. He can't afford to help as he is flying his whole family across the atlantic to New York for the summer (yes I am bitter but hey he doesn't help at all and has only called the kids once in almost 2 years - he says he has 'moved on' now he is remarried and has a baby and two step daughters and that means he doesn't have to think about the three children from his marriage of ten years to me)
Anyway Lloyd was willing to pay for the bussing because he knows it is important for the children to stay in the school they are in. They have been through so much in recent years - my divorce, moving to Scotland, moving to Canada etc etc and they are great kids and love their school so it really isn't fair to move them again.
Anyway so he was willing to pay for the busses - but the school called this morning to say the Principal has decided that she would like to pay for the busses for the year for all of them!! Well, not her personally but from her budget!!! How great is that???? I was in tears!! I just kept saying 'all of it???' really???? and 'thats wonderful' - not sure what the lady on the other end thought lol but I was just overcome with so much emotion!
I love my kids school - it is such a fabulous school!!! The staff are brilliant and have really welcomed my three into it. They even wrote Chris a letter and sent it via canada post to him to congratulate him on being an honour student in every subject!!!
Anyway - I think I will make up a big hamper of treats and send it in for the staff to put in the staffroom so they can have something nice with coffee for a few days :)
I still can't believe they are doing this :) We have so much to pay out for this year with the fencing and the basement and everything that we probably weren't going to have a holiday and I think we all need a break. We couldn't even afford a few nights in Calgary but now we can - we can take the kids to Drumheller and to Calloway Park and Calgary Zoo for a few days :)
Other good news today is an email from our breeder to say Hocus is in heat and will be bred this week to Tom and the pups should be born the end of July so ready the end of September to come home to us!!!
I worked hard in the house today and also decluttered a lot - I got all of downstairs looking good and I did all the ironing so Lloyd has shirts and tshirts for the week. I also walked Abby down to the little playground but she didn't like it much so we walked to the big one with the swings instead. She loves the swings - she is so much like me. She would stay in the swing all day if you let her - she kind of hangs there looking odd lol but she loves it
I cancelled my dental appt for tonight - I am just too tired. I have to go grocery shopping though and to book my driving test for Saturday and of course to the doctors in half an hour.
I will be glad when Lloyd gets home in a few minutes. I need a hug. A big big hug.
And the children will be home soon too :) I love my family. I am so lucky. I have a wonderful family. 4 amazing children all with such different personalities, and my wonderful partner Lloyd. And Bailey - our gorgeous kitten who completes the picture and makes this house feel more like a home :)
Lucky me :)
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| I killed them. |
| 05.16.04 (6:47 pm) [edit] |
I got fed up with the fish tank looking green so I cleaned it out. We found millipede type things living in the gravel - yuck - what are they????? I put the fish back in when the water was ready but now they are all swimming on their sides and struggling to fight the filter :( I think I killed the fish. They are not looking good.
Like Lloyd says - it will be a miracle if they are still alive by morning :( I am hopeless with fish. In fact we are all hopeless at looking after fish so I don't think we should have fish! I think we should get a frog or something to keep in the tank instead. This year so many of our fish have died. I have a feeling that by morning another 8 tiger barbs, and a zebra thingy are going to be dead too :(
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| 05.16.04 (5:28 pm) [edit] |
I am so so tired and so this will be a short blog but I just wanted to add a picture I took today - We had a fab day - bacon sandwiches on the deck in the hot sun this morning - then we kind of went crazy at stupidstore for summer clothes for the kids! They need them but still.............and then we came home and packed the car up and drove over to Half Moon Lake. We had such a great time - we parked under some trees and had a huge area to ourselves - the kids played soccer with Lloyd and we played frizbee and skipping with susies skipping rope. We heard the frogs (calling for sex lol!!) and saw the trees by the lake that the beavers had been chewing. It was so hot but there weren't many people there. A few boats and water skiers on the lake.
We walked along the lake to the playground for awhile and Laurie and susie paddled in the lake while CHris was on the swings etc. It was just such a nice day and I took a lot of pictures :)
I love summer :) Here is a picture of my 4 by the lake :)
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| scrapbooking |
| 05.15.04 (9:55 am) [edit] |
I love to scrapbook - it is my obsession. Photography and scrapbooking and journaling combined - so it's my perfect hobby. I have a crop night at my home every month which I look forward to, and I have my own craft room at home so I am lucky to have the space to scrapbook and I don't have to pack it all away when I finish. I love to scrapbook. Here are a few of the pages I have done:
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| great sex and saturdays |
| 05.15.04 (8:11 am) [edit] |
I think Lloyd and I are 'doing it' wrong. Don't get me wrong - it's fab! Amazing. Best ever. BUT it isn't like in the movies lol - how come in the movies they don't show the woman hobbling to the bathroom because everything is running out? How come they don't show them having to put a towel or a tshirt on the 'sticky bit' in the bed because of the messy stuff having come out while they were curled up asleep afterwards??????
Well saturday is here again. Kids are driving me nuts again. Laurence is a real pain right now and I have no idea what to do about it. Susie is being a pain too. I know they are sick of being in the house so much - maybe if the weather warms up they can play outside more and it will help. Stupid snow.
We were taking them to Lets Play this afternoon and to the movies but now I just don't feel like doing anything for them :( It makes me so sad when they are like this. Lloyd is finishing work earlier and coming home because I just need him here.
God I need chocolate. I really really need some chocolate.
The stupid printer won't work. I can't get it to print somehting and now it won't delete the job it was supposed to print grrrrrrrrr :(
great start to the weekend - I will be so glad when Lloyd goes back to normal hours - I know the money is good and I know we have so much to pay for in the next few months but when he works it means I don't get a break either. And I so need a break. Maybe Jaime could have Abigail in her dayhome for a week or two and I could fly home for a holiday?
Today is my sisters 17th wedding anniversary. Tomorrow is my nephews 17th birthday. Yes - she went into labour on her wedding night!!!! Too funny!
Her hubby is away with the Royal Navy atm (all this war stuff going on and the Royal Navy is sending their ships ona tour of California and then on to NYC for 4th July - geez what a hard job that is!!!!!! kind of p*sses me off!
Anyway she is alone for her wedding anniversary again but she is going to her school reunion tonight - she says she intends to have a few drinks before she goes - dutch courage and all that lol!
I haven't sent any cards or anything so I guess I should send an E-card huh?
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| apples and stupid stars |
| 05.15.04 (7:32 am) [edit] |
OMG Gwyneth Paltrow has called her baby APPLE!!!!!! What a bloody stupid name!!!!! Why do stars feel the need to pick such stupid ridiculous names????
I can't stand people who pick stupid names for their kids - I think it's really selfish because that kid is stuck with that name then. Who knows the childs personality - who knows if that child will be outgoing and vivacious or whether it will be shy and introvert and hate the name with a vengeance.
Just like bloody Fifi Trixibelle and names like that - poor kid!
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| wedges |
| 05.14.04 (5:00 pm) [edit] |
I am so damn bored today. I finished my book (The LOvely Bones - fab book - a MUST read! I will write about that tomorrow though) and I read to Abby and played with her and we had the playdough out again - I shall be so glad when the weather is warmer and we can go outside more.
Lloyd is late home again - he is on his way and is going to Tims tonight yay!!! I love our Friday night ritual of coffee from Tims and a donut or something nice :) then curling up to watch Joan of Arcadia or :) we sure know how to live!!! Such an exciting life :)
Abigail is obsessed with her ballet outfit again today and has worn it almost all day - there is probably green playdough squashed into it now. We made bogies (boogers) out of the playdough which abby enjoyed rolling between her fingers :) good practice hehehehehe we also made peas - funny how the peas looked exactly like the bogies.
Dinners is in the oven - I decided to make wedges.
My recipe for wedges:
cut potatoes into wedges lengthwise. Wash in clean cold water.
put wedges in big oven tray and drizzle with oil - sprinkle liberally with paprika salt and pepper - stick in hot oven 450 for about 45 minutes
delicious!!!!
I serve them with a dip I make from light mayo mixed with a certain ranch dip I get from Pizza 73 :) I save it especially for when I make wedges!! And we eat them a big plate of salad :)
geez I must be bored!
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| bitch |
| 05.14.04 (3:11 pm) [edit] |
I think the woman that lives in the house behind mine is a real bitch. They moved in two days running. She has a daughter the same age as abby who is in daycare all day every day (to pay for the zillion toys she has by the look of it and not to pay for the bills and day to day life)
Anyway - there was a box from the building site blown into there garden the other day so Wednesday night while we were making dinner we watch her walk out to the box, pick it up and throw it into our garden!!! WTF????? She then looked at us, turned and went back in the house!!!!! That really pissed me off and I started searching for a new house on the net yesterday. but more importantly I WANT A FENCE!! A f*cking 10 foot tall solid wood fence that no one can see through and ten zillion massive pine trees so no one can see into my garden.
I hate where we live - we live in a small city (it would be called a small town in England even though it has like two thousand mcdonalds!!!) but worst of all we live in a subdivision that is new - and is like something out of stepford wives. every garden looks the same and every house almost looks the same - sure they have rules like no house is allowed to be the same colour or style or have the same roof as the three next to it etc etc but basically it all look the SAME!!!! there are ponds and playground dotted between the houses and walking trails and bike trails and lots of new trees!!! Very blah!!!!! very very blah!!!
Lloyd and I wnat an acreage - with no neighbors and lots of privacy - lots of space and trees and a pond and beavers and moose. But the kids would hate that so we agreed to live in this hell hole until they are older and can drive. They love it - we have skating rinks and sledding hills for the winter and playgrounds, baseball diamonds and tennis courts for the summer. They are surrounded by kids their age and they disappear for hours playing when the weather is good.
So we built a house here last year and I hate the house and hate the privacy and here I shall stay until the kids are older - if I can bear it. And then I feel selfish as it's a beautiful home - 3500 sq ft of brand new everything. When we emigrated we didn't bring much with us and it has been fun turning this house into a home - it was fun watching it being built and choosing colours for tiles and walls and carpet and light fittings.
But out of every window I look through I see other houses and other faces staring back at me - other peoples gardens and other peoples kitchens too close - far too close.
The one good thing is the amazing view of the northern lights. And I know compared to many I am very very lucky. I know to many people this is a dream home. Many of my friends come here and ooooh and ahhhhh at it and say it's perfect.
Maybe I am a bitch too.
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| dwarfism and procrastination in the mornings |
| 05.14.04 (9:15 am) [edit] |
I am a terrible procrastinator in the mornings!!! I always say to myself what I should be doing and that I should get dressed etc - sometimes I even go upstairs to get dressed but I will always find something I need from downstairs and I end up back here at the computer 'just checking mail' which turns into 'just checking the LP website' and of course tblogs is my homepage so I end up here saying hi on tblurt and reading my comments and adding a blog!
So here I sit in my pjs (which aren't really pj's more liek slip dress thing but if I say nighty it will sound like I wear something really old fashioned lol buttoned up tight to the neck to keep the men away lol when really its just a little slip thingy with spaghetti straps. I hate having anything with sleeves to sleep in.
I just had my marmite on toast and my OJ with the iron in it and my tablets that I have to take. I eat so much marmite which is full of b-vitamins which are supposed to give you energy and make you happy end mentally stable lol - so how come it doesn't work on me - when I was little they used to say it would make me grow big and tall - I'm not quite 5' tall geez so I guess it reall doesn't work!!!!
Lloyd says I would almost pass as a 'small person' or dwarf - but don't you ahve to have 'dwarfism' to be classifies as a dwarf? I don't know. I'm still growing though - unfortunately I am growing out and not up - and Lloyd has started measuring me against the wall when he measures the kids every few months - because he is insistant that I am shrinking! Hell - I may be older than him but I'm not that old! If I am starting to shrink now geez I will fit in his damn pocket by the time I'm 60!!!
I should email Mandy and say hi - I haven't heard from her for a while.
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| my firstborn :) |
| 05.14.04 (8:06 am) [edit] |
And this is Chris - my oldest Son. My firstborn :) This pic was taken last summer too :)
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| 05.14.04 (7:48 am) [edit] |
Ok so I have shown pics of my girls and I do tend to have more pics of them - mainly because they are at home more and they like to have their picture taken where as the boys are not so keen. But sometimes I get a pic of them. THis is Laurie with his little sister taken last summer.
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| feelin' better! |
| 05.14.04 (7:43 am) [edit] |
Thank you all so much for the comments and thought about me having flu etc :) I had dinner last night and then soaked in a hot bath which helped a LOT. Curled up on the sofa with the fire lit for a while and then we crawled into bed at 9pm. Abigail was hyper - my fault for letting her nap until after 4pm I guess - she was bouncing on the bed but we switched the lights off and she fell asleep with us by 10pm. Anyway this morning I feel tons better - no signs of a cold or flu or anything and I'm not cold - so thats good news :)
I woke up at 11:22pm for a wee :) looked out of the window and there was the most gorgeous northern lights display! I love that we have a fab view of the northern lights on three sides of the house! I don't think I will ever tire of watching them - they are just so magical - just like natures own lava lamp! Very relaxing to watch. And the house was still with everyone sleeping so I stood and watched for quite a while until they faded away.
Sarah invited me to her creative memories party on Monday night - I was hoping to go but I have the doctors and then the dentist instead :( the dentist warned me that I have to have several injections and will be numb for a few hours - I can hardly go to Sarahs house and dribble all night!!!
I am so so broody right now. We have been trying for another baby since september 2002. Nothing! It's so weird after having 4 children easily to then have problems getting pregnant. After Abigail was born I had the contraceptive injection and it just screwed up my insides I think - and now I just can't get preggers :( and Lloyd wants another as much as I do. He comes home and tells me about the tiny baby he saw at the mall or the colleague who had a baby last week etc etc etc.
My Mum visits a fortune teller every 6 months or so - she has been seeing this lady - Mary Miller - for years and years and she is always amazingly right. Last time Mum went - last November, she was told that a boy would be born into the family. Well one of my sisters is infertile, the other sister has three boys but does not want any more so that leaves me. We would love a boy - so maybe it will happen..................but when??????
Mary Miller reads cards - not tarot but ordinary playing cards. You don't touch them - she just lays them out on the table and reads them like that - and she records the session for you so you can listen again and again. She was right about my cousins death, she was right about my other cousins nasty divorce and she was right when she said my mother would hold two boys on her knee two years ago - everyone thought I would have a boy but it wasn't me - it was my sister and my cousin and that spring sure enough my cousin visited with her baby boy and my Mom held him and my nephew for a while.
Well I guess I should get off of my butt and go do something. Get the day started. It is going to warm up after lunch so Abby and I can go out to the park or something - this morning is supposed to be 4c though so I am staying in the warm. Think I will finish my book then I can head to chapters tomorrow in search of a new one.
Oh I have to answer one of the promtps!!!
What were you just daydreaming about? Write it down.
I was daydreaming about walking around the pond with Abigail. Last week there were so many geese and ducks on there that the next day we took bread to feed them - they had all gone! Must have just been passing through on their way somewhere better lol! BUt I was so p*ssed off that we came straight home grrrrr. I was so mad that there were no ducks to feed. I was daydreaming about that and then started to think about all the times I have fed ducks back home in the UK. Pushing Susannah around Bramhall Park in her stroller, the time the swans attacked Christopher in the Lake District and Nigel got mad at me! Going to feed the ducks outside of Lloyds office in Edinburgh - when Abigail was a tiny baby. The seagull stealing Susies chip at West Bay. All the swans that scared me at the castle in Scotland by the lake.
And feeding the ducks at the big park near Stockport. Taking Julie there before she died with little Ben - and the icy paths that we kept slipping on. What was the name of that park?
I loved that you could go on a cold winters day and feed the grateful ducks! Here in Alberta the ducks are more sensible and fly south for the winter - there are almost NO birds whatsoever here in winter. I find that very strange.
wow my daydreaming tends to get sidetracked. Maybe I have ADHD!!! lol!
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| I won I won!!!! |
| 05.14.04 (7:07 am) [edit] |
I won the joke of the week - check it out on Ferrimans blog - link to the left :)
Woohoo!!! I won!!! Which is so totally weird because I am hopeless at telling jokes!! The best joke ever can just sound so unfunny and bad coming from me!!! I try - it's one of those skills that I have always wanted but I guess I shall always be crap at telling jokes. I always get mixed up half way through and forget the punch line or something!
But woohoo I won!!! Thanks Ferriman :)
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| Little ballerina |
| 05.13.04 (3:49 pm) [edit] |
Abigail has had a busy day - she did painting with me earlier, then playdough, and then dressed up in her tutu and ballet danced around the house for a while :) I caught this pic and thought it was lovely although the light isn't too good. Then Kaitlyn arrived and Abigail liked playing with 'the baby' for a while until it was nap time :)
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| not too bad after all :) |
| 05.13.04 (3:47 pm) [edit] |
So my afternoon was good. Tara came by with my Cheaper By The Dozen dvd. She was telling me about her basement and all the work being done there. She didn't stay. Shawna came over though and brought me a big choccy puffed wheat thing to have with coffee.
I really like Shawna - so far she seems really nice and normal. We had a good afternoon. She reminisces about the 80's like I do lol :) roller skating and cabbage patch kids and all that stuff :) WE talked about dogs and funfairs (she paid $35 to go on a fair ride two years ago - is she nuts??????) and we just don't seem to run out of things to talk about which is good - and she is just so normal. One of her Grandparents is British lol - maybe that is why hehehehehhehe! Because for a Canadian she is really normal roflmao!
Carole Anne told me I should explain on the scrapbooking group about why I don;t have my licence - so I made up this story about getting caught for reckless driving when I was speeding to a scrapbook store or something - CA then said the cops didn't tell my hubby about all the scrapbooking purchases I had made because she flashed her cleavage at them lol - anyway - it makes sense if you know us lol - she said she spat her lunch over her computer when I sent the story.
Lloyd found a house on mls.ca that he likes so we might drive over and check it out later - he is coming home early from work. Well, earlier than he has been coming home anyway :)
The kids are home tidying up the garage after the mess they left it in yesterday when they did the flyers.
Laurie got 100% on a test today so he is happy :) His teacher said he did an excellent job.
That is something that drives me nuts over here - the way parents and teachers say goooooooood jjjjjoooobbbbbb ' to kids in sucha patronising way. Geez it sounds like something you say to a dog!!!
Talking of dogs - we are getting a golden retriever puppy - we have waited and waited until the right time for a dog and this year with the house and the garden fenced and Abigail out of diapers and everything it just seems like the right time. So we have our name down for a puppy from a breeder just west of the city. We were supposed to get the pups in August but Hocus hasn't gone into heat yet so she hasn't been bred - so it looks as though it won't be until fall at the earliest. But thats fine - theres no hurry - we are so happy with the breeder we chose and Hocus is just gorgeous and the dog she is being bred with is gorgeous too - so we can wait for the right puppy :)
I am so cold - I have a sore throat and my mouth hurts and I just can't warm up - have the heating on and the fire is lit in the family room and I am still so cold :(
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| smelly clothes, PMS + snow |
| 05.13.04 (10:59 am) [edit] |
Its snowing - how stupid is that??? To snow in May??? Again!!!!????? I hate this place!
Lloyd bought new Bounce sheets yesterday for the tumble dryer but he bought fragrance free - what the hell is the point of buying fragrance free??? There is very little to enjoy about doing laundry for six people - especially on a week like this when Abigail threw up all over her bedding. The only joy from doing the laundry is that I love the smell as I fold away the clothes and put them in the childrens rooms etc - so for the next few weeks there will be NO JOY whatsoever because they won't even smell nice.
Little things like this do matter.
I am not happy today. I have PMS. Little things matter even more when I have PMS. Lloyd ahs lived with me for 3 years - he should know this by now. He should know not to make any mistakes or do anything different during PMS!!!!! grrrrrrr it's just the way it has to be.
I think I need coffee.
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| For Krazedone |
| 05.12.04 (4:34 pm) [edit] |
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Krazed - this is how the men keep warm up in this cold cold part of the world!!! ;) how does it compare to your shirtless construction guys?????
See - I told you all canadians are weird lol!! :roll:
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| my toes in ruby slippers |
| 05.12.04 (3:55 pm) [edit] |
My new nail polish - its called Ruby Slippers and it is very un-me lol - I am not a red lippy and nail polish kind of gal but I loved the name of this one :) I am also hopeless at putting on nailpolish which is another reason not to wear bright and dark colours. And no rude comments about my feet thank you very much ;) I get enough of those from my hubby! He thinks I am an alien as I have alien dips (don't ask where) and I can spread my toes like fingers hehehehehehe!
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| killing |
| 05.12.04 (3:47 pm) [edit] |
The kids are upstairs killing each other. They have been home about 6 minutes and Laurence and Susannah are killing each other and shouting and screaming and crying and all that jazz. Most days they are the best of friends - some days they hate each other. I guess thats normal but I am just not going to deal with it today - so I will hide in here in my office/ craft room and ignore it all until someone tells me the paramedics are needed.
They have to deliver the flyers today. Chris is lying down with a headache. I said tough - take a tylenol and rest for 20 minutes and then deliver the flyers - a headache is not reason enough not to go to work.
Thank god today is the last day ever they have to do it.
Lloyd is working late - says he will finish at 7 and then has to go grocery shopping :( so we are eating late - probably - or I may just tell him to go ahead and eat at work and I will eat with the kids. Who knows. I was going to do sausages in an onin gravy with mashed potatoes and vegetables. Lloyd loves my onion gravy - I caramelise the onions by cooking them slowly and they end up sweet and lovely and thicken the gravy perfectly :)
Dr Phil today was 'Anatomy of a divorce'. He has a couple on there who literally hate each other and are fighting over things like tupperware and jewellery. I called Lloyd after the show and told him we should never ever go through that. I know we won't though.
Divorce doesn't have to be like that though. My divorce was very simple - I didn't ask for anything but my ex gave me most things - he kept the furniture but he gave me all the things I wanted - paintings I loved, all the photographs, the baby books, and my antiques etc. And of course the children are with me - but then he didn't want them anyway - has made that clear ever since - in that he pays very very little maintenance and has called them once in almost 2 years - on Christmas day and that was because I nagged him to call them.
But my children didn't have to suffer arguments or nastiness when we split up - I think distance helped though - I moved 4 hours away and then emigrated to Canada. Although If we had lived 30 minutes away from him he still wouldn't have seen them. My children must hurt inside from the fact their Dad doesn't stay in touch - but Lloyd is a fab Daddy to them. And if you were a fly on our wall you would agree that we are truly blended - apart from the colour of my childrens skin, you can't tell they are not his blood children.
So today was a great day - my group was good this morning - people shared their Mothers Day stories with us. Sara woke to a smash and her two children had smashed their brand new big screen tv - her husband was in tears and just left the house and didn't come home until 5pm!!!!!
Janelle got breakfast in bed but her husband didn't clean up at all so she thought she would leave it and he would do it later - 11pm that night she ended up having to wash up her own breakfast plates!!! And they had gone to her in laws for supper and her DH had disappeared with her brother for a few hours and just left her there!!
We did the craft and they all seemed to like it - they all thanked me a lot anyway - I also got my Avon - nail polish called 'Ruby Slippers' which is bright red with glittery bits in it. I can't wear nail polish on my fingers as it feels horrid but in the summer I love to paint my toe nails. I have to say that this red is really tarty and I will probably give it to Susie who loves anything tarty (she's six lol) or I will use it on my crafts to add dazzle lol! But for today I have glam and tarty red toe nails :)
Maybe I should take a picture.
I have workmen adding siding to the house next door right outside my office window here at home - and they are watching me take pictures of my toes like I am insane. They were very nice when I asked them to turn their radio down though - they switched it off. I hate loud music - always have. I love music but can't understand when people listen to it at an uncomfortable level - like boys in their cars when they have it so loud that your own car shakes from the vibration of their bass in their car three cars back!!! grrrrrr
There was a new lady at the group - a friend of Sara - and a grade 1 teacher - she is on maternity leave and is obviously very hormonal since the birth as I said what a great age it is to teach as they are all in love with their teacher still at that age - and she welled up with tears and said how much she missed the children she taught.
After my group I chatted with Wendy on the way home - her hubby is a well known curling player (although I have no idea about curling sorry!) anyway he is off to China for week to sort out about a clothing range they sell ?????????? lol! He is picking styles etc - to be honest he doesn't look like a style guru when you see him on tv. But Wendy is lovely - I really like her. She is just so funny and strangely wise even though sometimes she says the oddest things :) She has a good heart - you know what I mean?
Abigail had some lunch and then went for her nap and I curled up with Dr Phil. Not literally lol - he isn't my type - psycho Robin is welcome to him. lol! And anyway I was married to a therapist for 10 years - not doing that again lol! I apinted my nails while I watched Dr Phil anyway.
After Abby's nap we climbed in the bath and Abby played while I read The Lovely Bones. I am almost finished - it's an excellent book! I can't decide what to read next. Any recommendations? Has anyone read the book 'The Five People You Meet In Heaven' or whatever its called? It sounds good but would like to know from someone else before I buy!
I really should iron Lloyd a shirt for tomrrow but I am so tired this afternoon. Maybe soaking in the bath in the afternoon is not a good idea :)
Shawna emailed me - we are heading out for a walk tomorrow afternoon. If we don't wake up to a foot of snow in the morning :( :shock:
It is depressing seeing the temp at 0c and a forecast of snow and rain in MAY!!!!!! It makes the rain in the UK seem not quite so bad! And of course in good Canadian fashion they all say 'Is it cold enough for ya?? Eh???' and then proceed to tell you about the time it snowed in August grrrrroooooooaaaaaaannnnn how unfunny is that????????? :roll:
Think I need some coffee or something before I fall asleep - something to eat too - I didn't have lunch!
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| feeding Noah |
| 05.12.04 (11:55 am) [edit] |
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I called Lloyd at work and when I called he was sat reading my blog and feeding Noah my little blue dog ;) how sweet is this man of mine?????
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| My ten |
| 05.12.04 (11:54 am) [edit] |
1. Single or taken?
very taken
2. Describe yourself in one word?
myself
3. What's the first thing you do when you wake
up?
drink the coffee that my wonderful hubby always leaves beside my bed before he goes to work - it's in a Tim Hortons thermal mug so it stays hot :)
4. What's the last thing you do before you go to
bed?
hold Lloyds hand.
5. Something about you that you're proud of:
I am very creative
6. Are you in love?
very much so
7. What's your mobile number:
mobile?????? geez this has to be British huh?? I haven't heard the term mobile for a couple of years lol - cell???? do you mean cell?????? lol no chance of me putting that on here anyway lol!
8. Are you happy?
I have period cramps right now but I also have a bar of toblerone beside me so yes right now I am pretty happy ;)
9. Why?
Because I had a nice morning, I come home and call the man I love, my daughter is napping and I was brave enough to ask the builders to turn their radio down - it was driving me nuts ;)
10. What is the most important material object
you possess?
My scrapbook albums - because they contain all my memories, pictures of my loved ones and my history and my feelings.
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| bleary eyed WEdnesday |
| 05.12.04 (7:06 am) [edit] |
Weird dream alert. I woke up today (Wednesday but in my dream) and went to Mandys house (today would have been her sons 12th birthday) anyway we were sat on these chairs on a sidewalk and chatting about different things and Lynne from scotland walks past - she had a termination because the age gap between her kids would be too small - then Mandy says how she has sent her childrens spirits up into space on a rocket and she was telling me where they were atm. Then I remembered I was supposed to be going out this morning and wendy was picking me up so I rushed back to my house and was eating this blueberry crumble cake (yuck and so early lol!) and then wendy arrived and I introduced her to Mandy as Lisa - then I laughed and said it was because I have psycho lisa on the brain atm lol! then I couldn't remember wendys name so I stuffed the cake in my mouth so I had an excuse not to say the name.
Then I had put in my blog how I thought Mandy should travel for a while and go to the UK and stay with family and friends of mine etc and all of a sudden I started getting snailmail letters from people across the globe telling me why she should or should not go travelling at this time.
Anyway - it was a weird dream. I have been awake 40 minutes now and still can't keep my eyes open. The kids have left for school and Abby is watching Barney on tv and drinking her milk. I should go and get showered while she is occupied. Wendy really is giving me a ride to the group today and should be here at 9:15 this morning.
I am so looking forward to going out this morning - I really enjoy this group - as weird as everyone there is lol they are a great group and I really enjoy Wendy's company. I hope they like the craft I am doing - I forgot to buy varnish last night.
I think I have pms again - I feel very sick and nauseous and have stomach ache - two days now. and my boobs hurt - my jeans are tight too so all in all I guess Aunt Flo is on her way - fun fun fun.
I emailed Mandy this morning - she is sooooo moody atm - it's to be expected I know but it is hard to deal with when I don't know her that well. I can't drive atm so I can't go and visit her today but I sent her an email to say she is in my thoughts today - it really would have been her sons 12th birthday today. It's very very sad - and she has had mothers day, Camerons birthday and moving house and having to go through all the childrens things - all in one week - and her stupid useless therapist cancelled on her grrrrrr
Here comes the next question from the writing prompts I was sent yesterday:
2. What's the first thing that comes to mind for the following items:
favorite gift -
I have several to remember. My 'white boots' ice skates that Nigel bought me a few years back - I had always always wanted figure skates and I adore them. Then there is the box of maltesers when I was 8 - sounds silly but I really remember that - there is nothing nicer than a box of maltesers or smarties - they taste so much nicer than out of a packet lol and I felt so grown up to have a box of them! Also the book 'Swallows and Amazons' from my Aunty Doreen - along with a gold butterfly bookmark. I remember sitting and reading that book on my bed :)
something soft -
My bed - it is the most comfortable bed I have ever ever slept on. I remember going to choose it with Lloyd in Scotland at Forest furnishings. It is pocket sprung with like a zillion springs and is just heavenly - the base is pocket sprung as well as the mattress. The bedding is Marks and Spencers Script - with a goose down duvet and goose down pillows and the covers are the softest softest cotton. It is starting to get old now (the sheets and duvet cover) but they don't make it any more and the new ones are not as soft so I will keep it until it falls apart!
bad smell? -
I remember when I was about ten - going around to Natashas house one Sunday morning - her Mum had been baking these chocolate fudge type bars and maybe she burnt them or something but I can remember the stench to this day - urgh it was revolting and choked me until I felt I couldn't breathe. The whole house smelt like this burnt chocolate fudge type smell that was so so nasty :(
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| new mugs |
| 05.11.04 (7:15 pm) [edit] |
We got these gorgeous oversized cups and saucers at Homesense on Saturday - they were $7.99 per cup and saucer and then as I picked them up the sales lady told me she was about to mark them down to $5 each set!!!! Webought a mug for each of us and then when we got home decided we needed some for when guests/ our parents come over - so we went back yesterday and got the last 2 - aren't they lovely? They are huge!
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| writing prompts |
| 05.11.04 (6:38 pm) [edit] |
I get an email each month from Angie Pedersen (author of "The Book of Me' and avid scrapbooker at www.onescrappysite.com and each month she sends a writing prompt for each day. I will answer each days in my blog :)
1. Imagine you'll be sailing around the world. Who's your travel partner,
and why?
As obvious and as dumb as it sounds I would have to choose my husband Lloyd. Because he is a very practical man - he can fix anything and is just so capable. He loves the same things that I love - he would enjoy seeing every seagull, every dolphin, every ice berg, every sunset and every sunrise just the way I do. And I would not want to go that long without sex and Lloyd is the only person I want to make love to.
I would be excited to see every single new port of call because I would be sharing all the new experiences with Lloyd. There is no one else I would rather be with.
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| passed |
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I passed my written drivers test - next step to take my actual test and then I can drive again yay!!!!
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| tbucks anyone |
| 05.11.04 (2:34 pm) [edit] |
Anyone need any tbucks? I have quite a few I don't need so whoever sends me a good reason why they should get them then they get them ;)
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| grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr |
| 05.11.04 (11:53 am) [edit] |
bloody Tara - she emails me at 12:23pm to say she changed her mind about coming over - I kind of guessed that duh!! she was supposed to be here at 9am. this is what I mean - Canadians don't seem to have any social skills. I think it is just so rude - and this isn't just a one time thing from one person it happens a lot by all of them that I have met and that is all I can judge things on - my own experiences.
How difficult would it have been for her to email me - or to call to say she wasn't coming over? BUt to just not show up and then three and a half hours later to just email and say she had changed her mind??? Not even a sorry????? helllloooooooo??????? duh?????? I fucking hate it here sometimes - I just am not used to this kind of culture - to me its not normal - I understand its normal for them but it's not normal for me.
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| Five |
| 05.11.04 (11:33 am) [edit] |
Five things I can't live without: (swiped from Scubadiva's blog lol - see link on side)
1. Lloyd
2. hugs (from Lloyd, kids, friends)
3. paper
4. bubble baths
5. digital camera
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| how the swiffer wetjet was invented |
| 05.11.04 (11:24 am) [edit] |
I have a swiffer wetjet - I hate it - I never use it - I have other ways I prefer to clean the floor that involve me throwing soapy water all over the place - throwing a large towel down and skating about all over the floor scrubbing the floor with my feet as I dance and twist!!! I probably look funny but it gets the floor clean - gives me a workout and now several of my 'acquaintances' do it too lol!! They call it the 'Jane way'
Anyway - I hate the smell that comes from the swiffer wetjet - but most of all I hate pulling off the wet dirty soggy pad!!! Do you know what that is???? Its a giant siggy sanitary towel!!!! Someone somewhere had guests arriving and had lost their mop or had no cloths left - so they grabbed the only thing they could find - a massive sanitary towel / always ultra with wings type thing and used that!!! And it worked so good they designed the swiffer wetjet!!! It has to be how it was invented!!! Its exactly like those horrid bulky sanitary towels!!! Can you imagine!!???? Lovely!!! Next time you use yours have a look and you will see I'm right!!!
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| my candy dish |
| 05.11.04 (11:02 am) [edit] |
Here are a couple of pictures of the candy dish I made this morning as an example for the group tomorrow - they are each going to make one and decorate it :) I was quite pleased with it although I hate the silver trim etc - the women at the group will like it. Anyway, it's a terracotta pot stuck to the base of a terracotta saucer and painted :)
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| psycho and a 'no show' |
| 05.11.04 (10:25 am) [edit] |
So Tara didn't show up. Psycho Lisa called me though and told me all about her sinus infection - nice - saying how ill she feels etc - and then asks if I am going to her candle party tomorrow!! Do I want a sinus infection????? I think not!!! This woman ignores me totally for 2 weeks - gets angry at me for not knowing what I am doing a week in advance and then phones up and chats like nothing is wrong. She is psycho. She is Canadian. Need I say more.
I have a hard time with canadians. I just don't get on with them - they are very different - people seem to think that because Canada has a ginat border with the States, the people are the same - but they ARE NOT!!!! Canadians are very conservative, they have no understanding of what friendship is - yes they would give you the coat off their back if you needed it but they don't understand friendships on a deeper level. They are incapable of doing anything without arranging it two weeks in advance. They are incapable of talking about sex without giggling like teens even in their thirties and forties. therapy is a taboo subject here. Mental health issues are largely brushed under the carpet. And it seems that you can not go to a friends house without having to buy something - the majority of people seem to think it is ok to only have friends over when you want them to buy tupperware or discovery toys or pampered chef items or stampin up goods - they seem to have forgotten what friendship is.
You see - here in Canada I have found that you have certain friends on certain days and they never mix - a few overlap but thats about it.
I have my WEdnesday morning friends at the moms group. One of them invited me to her Thursday morning coffee group. So I now have the THursday morning friends. I have my Friday afternoon friends that come over here for coffee. I also have Shawna who is my Monday or Tuesday afternoon walking friend. Then I have my scrapbooking once a month on a Friday friends and also there is sarah who is my Tuesday morning every couple of months friend.
But don't ever conside asking any of them to do anythinge xcept what we do on the set days - because I don't think they exist - I think these people only exist on these set days - and if you called them up at a different time their heads would explode or something. It just isn't the done thing. One lady at the wednesday group - Chatty Corrinne - I saw her in Walmart one day and said hi - she looked at me like I was an alien - as if to say - how dare you speak to me - it's not Wednesday morning!!!!!!
Its like they have no social skills or something.
I am so used to the British culture of people popping by for coffee, or of friends calling me up and saying what are you up to today? lets go shopping - lets go catch a movie - lets go swimming - or simply want some company??? Even Jaime who lives across the road from me will call and say what are you doing on THursday shall we meet at 10am???? uh???????? whats up with just calling one morning and saying 'hey want some coffee?'
And before anyone says I am being judgmental - I have got to know a LOT of people since I moved here almost 2 years ago. A LOT!!!! I have a LOT of acquaintances. But none of them would I call a friend really. They are all odd. One by one something comes to the surface to show their oddness. The two Sharons, Michele, Stacey, Kerri, Anna, Hazel, Sarah, Linda, Penny, Lisa from Groveland, the other psycho Lisa, Janice (OMG!!!) Kathy, Dana, the other Kathy, Karen, Tara, Jaime, Jodi from this road, Bobbie, LC (OMG IS SHE WACKO!!!) , Marci, Tammy,
and there are more and more names I could add. All weird or odd.
Shawna seems normal though - she phones and chats - she talks about the good and the bad, shes my age, she seems normal over her daughter, she wnats to do things on various days other than the walking - she scrapbooks and she wants to swim. She is struggling with weightwatchers but determind. She seems normal. She seems really nice - but after almost 2 years of meeting psychos I am so worried and half expect her to turn loopy too lol!
I need coffee :)
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| bright and shiny day :) |
| 05.11.04 (8:36 am) [edit] |
Not sure whats wrong with me but I am actually feeling quite good today!! It's only 9am and all my chores around the house are done - I am showered and dressed, Abby is changed and dressed and all is well in my little part of the world!
Tara might be coming over in a short while - her basement collapsed at the weekend - mud, sand and water everywhere and she has to be out of the house today so she may bring the girls over to play.
I got an email from Shawna again - asking if I would like to go swimming with her each week. I said yes!!! Please let her be normal - she seems so nice but each time I say that about someone here in this dumb country, they turn out to be odd or weird or strange or psycho :( please let me have met someone my age who is normal and has things in common with me!!! Let her be normal!!!! She isn't from Alberta so that works in her favour!!!
I am taking my driving test finallly tonight - the written section - enough of the avoiding and hiding from it - I need my licence back!!! I am going insane having lost my independence! I want to be able to drive my car and go out and about when I want to and not have to ask for a ride from people!
I finally went and bought the supplies for the surprise craft I am making at the group tomorrow - I expected to spend about $35 but they had the terracotta pots marked down by 40% so I got everything for about $15 including the glue and paint brushes - YAY!!!!!
Its lovely and sunny again today - very different from the greyness of yesterday - although it's still cold out. Calgary got snow I think - hahahahahahahahaha!
OMG am I turning into an Edmontonian Eh???????? lol!
Shawna was saying yesterday how she was upset that her hubby hadn't put effort into her first Mothers Day - she was so excited but he didn't get her a gift or even a card - he just told her he wasn't sure what to get - he bought her a DQ blizzard instead lol! Poor Shawna - she was so excited about her first Motehrs Day too. I told her that its what he is like the rest of the year that matters - not just about one day and what he buys her - reading on LP makes me just so grateful that Lloyd is the loving wonderful man that he is.
Mind you - I am doubly lucky because he is great at choosing gifts too.
Lloyd didn't cancel his columbia house editors choicce duh! So he got sent Runaway Jury yesterday lol! hehehehehehe! too funny!
Which reminds me - I should cancel mine!
I wonder if Tara will come over - and if she does I wonder if she will come over via Tims and bring some double doubles???? She normally does :) She won't drink instant coffee lol and thats all we have :) we aren't big coffee drinkers.
Last night was nice. WE went to the mall after dinner for my craft stuff and then home and watched the food netwrok for a while before climbing into a lovely hot bubble bath and Lloyd tested me on the driving manual thingy for my test today. Unfortunately after about 5 questions we got distracted
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He can't resist me ;)
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Lloyd I love you!!!!
Its the art show at the school tonight - so after my test we will go to the school and have a look at all the artwork - maybe order some cards from the childrens paintings. 24 is on tonight too - it's the only tv show Lloyd watches. We don't watch much tv - we will have it on in the background sometimes and I will iron while watching a scrapbooking show on Monday aftternoons - but thats all really. We did watch the Apprentice - and we watched the last Friends. BUt nothing else really. Sometimes we will watch a movie but most evenings we don't watch tv. I have friends that watch tv every evening all evening. My Mum and my sister watch almost every sopa shown in the UK and my Mum moans if I call in the middle of one of her shows! How boring - why waste so much of your life sat staring at a box and not living your own life. Life is far too short for soap operas and watsding even 30 minutes watching crap on tv.
Have a great day all ;)
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| Giving up on Tim Hortons |
| 05.10.04 (7:10 pm) [edit] |
The RCMP used to fill the parking lot at Tim Hortons here in The Park every night at 7:30pm. It was like THE safest place to go for coffee lol as it was just full of cops!! They opened a Second Cup down by Staples which is about 150 metres closer to the Cop station than their regular Tim Hortons - yet they have given up on Tims and now the parking Lot at Second Cup is full of cop cars every night at 7:30pm!! They sold out for the sake of 150 metres.
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| getting there |
| 05.10.04 (7:42 am) [edit] |
Its Monday. My TA account isn't working so I have no email.
Lloyd kissed me goodbye this morning - says he gave me a static shock but I still didn't wake up - but I kind of remember the kiss even though I was sleeping. I love that he kisses me goodbye even when I am sleeping.
He left for work at 5:40am I woke up around 7am and the kids were yelling - a couple of yells from me and they were busy tidying up and getting ready! They left an hour ago and since then I have cleaned the kitchen - sinks, worktops, table, all the appliances and washed the floor - it needed a thorough clean!
So my mothers day was wonderful but at the same time not unusual. We didn't go anywhere or do anything special. We went to Totem for some free popcorn ;) mmmmmmm and we went to Home sense and also Home Depot. Quickly to the mall too but I didn't really get anything.
Lloyd made me steak and fries with peas for dinner - my choice - it was the PERFECT steak mmmmmmmmm and we had choccy cream pie for dessert. We shared a bath before bed and curled up and watched most of GI Jane.
But a new week is here - Shawna emailed me and asked if I wanted to go for a walk this afternoon but it snowed yesterday and they say it won't be warmer than 7c but with a nasty windchill this afternoon so not sure I can be bothered - she can come here for the afternoon instead - as can Jaime if she wants to.
Tara wrote to say her basement collapsed this weekend and she has sand, mud and water everywhere down there - not good.
Well, I think I am going to iron Susies curtains and tidy up upstairs for a while - get it looking nice and clean after the weekend. It will seem odd having curtains in Susies room at last!
I think I am hvaing writers block atm - the last few days I have struggled to think of things to write here in my blog. Sorry if I put you all to sleep.
Maybe a shower will wake me up and I can think of more interesting things to write ;)
Bye for now!
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| My Mothers Day |
| 05.09.04 (10:12 am) [edit] |
:D :lol: :P :) :D :lol: :wink: :P :) :D :lol: :wink: :P
So far so good - in fact lovely :) every Sunday should be like this. Wake up and find Lloyd sat on the floor beside me looking at me lovingly :) he had just brought me coffee :) then he tells the children I am awake and they all come in with gifts and cards. Lloyd gives me another gift too, so for Mothers Day I got:
the book The Lovely Bones
scrapbook album
2 snowglobes (one is a a mother one with an angel inside and it plays a waltz and the other a canadian one with a little bear holding a canadian flag)
a brooch from Laurence that he made for me at school - it is made from a bottle cap filled with crayon shavings and then all melted together - its very unusual and I am going to wear it today.
Chris made me a big house from a cereal box - you can pull the windows out and they are secret drawers and in one drawer was two tickets to the Trappers baseball game next Saturday yay!!!!!!! And then if you open the front door there is a picture of the whole family inside :)
Susie made me a box from lolly sticks stuck together and when you open it, there are squares of paper for jotting notes on. The top is covered in hearts and shapes and it was wrapped in tissue with a rose on it and the rose is actually a pen!!! She also drew a big picture of me and her in front of a glorious sunset :) In the picture I look just like her and we only have three fingers on each hand - and we have the same triangle hairstyle :) She told me she wanted us to be like twins :)
Oh to be 6 again!
So then the children went to play and Lloyd and I did the baby dance and then ran a bath and we soaked in the bath awhile - then while I dressed and did my hair he made bacon sandwiches for breakfast - is there anything nicer than the smell of bacon filling the house on a Sunday morning???? Mmmmmmmm
We are having a quiet lazy day today - lazy morning and this afternoon we are going to Totem for some popcorn - it's a big hardware/ DIY store that has free popcorn mmmmmmm and we are going to price up the patio. Then we are going to the mall for the supplies for the craft for WEdnesday, and then we are going to the garden centre to look at trees for the garden and for a fire bowl too. And then we are going to Sobeys for steak and cheesecake - as Lloyd has promised to cook me cows bum for dinner - mmmmm my favourite!
I am a very lucky mom - I have been spoilt and loved and kissed and cuddled all morning and spoilt rotten :)
Like I said - this should happen every Sunday :)
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| still sleepy |
| 05.08.04 (5:42 pm) [edit] |
Well its Saturday evening. Lloyd ahs gone to sobeys for some sugar and bananas and a few other things. We drove to Michaels this afternoon - bought some paint for the kids and a few things for them but NOTHING for the craft for WEdnesday. Then on the way out I saw this candy dish made from a tiny terracotta pot and something else - it looked ideal so I think I may make those with them - they can paint them and decorate them if I glue them ready on TUesday night.
We went to Ikea and bought some white thick cotton curtains and some fucsia dye for susies bedroom - lloyd is buying the salt now and then I am going to dye the curtains bright pink :) Poor susie has had no curtains in her room since we moved here last October - her window is so big we have struggled to find curtain poles long enough that we liked.
in fact I should start washing them now I guess as it says to pre-wash them. I hope they turn out ok - otherwise I shall have to hang them looking tiedyed :)
WE had chicken and rice this evening and I baked my cheesecake squares which all the kids love.
It was hot today but it feels very stormy this evening - think I'm gonna check the weather channel website.
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| weekend stuff |
| 05.08.04 (8:14 am) [edit] |
I am so sleepy - can't wake up!! Need to go and shower to wake up if I can resist climbing back into bed as I walk past. mmmmmmm actually climbing back into bed seems like a good idea!
I had a late night - for me anyway - I normally go to bed at 10 pm but last night it was after midnight and i probably got to sleep around 1am. Lloyd and Abby were asleep when I went upstairs but Lloyd woke up and came round and cuddled me for a while which was nice.
Last night was my crop night. Jodi, Carole Anne, Shawna and Tara came and Jaime popped by too. It was a really nice night and I got 6 pages done which is great for me. CA was using her sizzix machine to make lots of paper piecing little people - they were so cute and she gave each of us some of her frog punchies - perfect for a layout of catching tadpoles etc at Monicas! I had finished scrapping by 11pm and we sat and chatted - Tara had her stomach stapled a month or so ago and Jodi wants gastric bypass surgery - so we chatted about that and Tara showed us her scar! Interesting!
So Saturday is here - shall I take my driving test? Or shall I just go shopping at Ikea and Michaels???? I know which I would rather do!
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ok this is the back garden before top soil, sprinkler system and sod has been put down and before fence is put up. Susie is stood in the far corner of the garden for perspective and it goes out a lot further either side - it's kind of coffin shaped lol! The garden is being done over the next three weeks and I can't wait to ahve it finished. Patio, lawns, wooden 6' fences and lots of trees and shrubs for privacy! wooden play thing at one side and a vegetable garden to the left where it gets the most sun!!! :) [image]Janemma_429767564.jpg[/image]
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| feeling better |
| 05.07.04 (3:31 pm) [edit] |
Well I am feeling a bit better. Carole anne is coming tonight, then Shawna called for a chat and to ask if she can bring a new friend with her tonight and then Tara wrote to say she is coming tonight! And Jodi is coming so there should be a few of us - Jaime too maybe (hope she doesn't try to sell everyone stuff from her business)
So my scrapbooking night should be a nice night again - everything is set up ready and the house is clean and tidy - kids are home and delivering flyers - awwww Chris's friend Se-in gave him a candy necklace and he gave it to abby -oh and susie brought home a tree from school for arbor day!!!! yay a free tree for the garden which is exactly what we need as we have a big empty garden to fill!
Just printed off some pics of abby I took this afternoon of her doing some gluing and sticking with foamy shapes. I will add a piccy - anyone know how many pics we can add here?
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| how I feel right now this minute |
| 05.07.04 (1:59 pm) [edit] |
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This is how I feel
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| cheery thoughts |
| 05.07.04 (11:50 am) [edit] |
saw someone had posted about 20 things that make them happy - figured it might help cheer me up :) Although the Cadburys Double Decker I just ate helped :) As did Lloyds phone call a few minutes ago. He is panicking because he had a dream that we were in the Rockies and being chased by a bear so we climbed on top of a cabin or something and abby kept running off lol! Aaaaawwwwww he fusses over his little girl! Both his girls!
20 things that make me happy:
1. Looking through my scrapbook albums and remembering everything from the photos
2. swimming with the children
3. bedtime
4. Hearing songs from 'my era' (the 80's!!)
5. getting a letter full of news from a friend back home.
6. comments in my blog
7. thinking what a great cook I have become.
8. How much my kids love me even though I'm not a perfect mum.
9. Good movies - the kind I can watch again and again and never get bored of.
10. Listening to the soundtrack from 'Message In a Bottle'
11. Looking around the scrapbook store
12. Fitting into size 11 jeans :)
13. The way Lloyd holds my hand and kisses me goodbye every morning at 6am whether I am awake or asleep. The way he leaves a cup of coffee by the bed in a thermos mug every morning. The way he loves me.
14. sucking my thumb
15. reading a great book that I just can't put down.
16. sitting on my deck soaking up the sun and relaxing
17. having my neck and shoulders massaged
18. bubbles
19. a clean and tidy but comfortable home
20. chocolate and sex :) not necessarily at the same time.
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| three questions |
| 05.07.04 (10:07 am) [edit] |
1. if you could only eat four foods for the rest of your life (without fear of gaining/losing weight or suffering nutritional deficiencies) what would they be?
chocolate, marmite on toast, raspberry cheesecake, roast dinner (chicken, gravy, roast potatoes and vegetables)
2. what do you wish everyone knew about you that you're too afraid to tell them about?
That I am a faithful friend if you bother to get to know me.
3. the same day you win $10,000,000 from the lottery, aliens land on earth and say they're going to blow up the planet in 24 hours. how do you spend your winnings?
I wouldn't bother with doing much except buying all our favourite foods and curling up at home with my family playing and chatting and cuddling
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| coming first |
| 05.07.04 (9:47 am) [edit] |
Lol - I was chatting to Lloyd on the phone earlier and he got summoned to a meeting while on the phone to me. I told him he should stand up and shout across the office that he is talking to his wife and his wife comes first.
He laughed and said my wife does always come first. I was puzzled at what he was saying and about to say no I don't when I got that he was talking about sex and then I started laughing hysterically and he had to hang up on me to go to his meeting! Too funny!! Oh the little things we saddo's laugh about ;)
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| wish it wasn't Friday |
| 05.07.04 (8:40 am) [edit] |
Normally I am shouting TGIF!!!! but today no :( I am not happy Friday is here. Tonight is my crop night which means a group of women come over to my house and we scrapbook all night and chat. I normally look forward to it but this month no one has even bothered to email me to say hi let alone to say they are coming - I think thats just rude - so I could well set everything up (moving tables and other furniture etc) and have no one show up.
Lloyd, the sweetheart, says if no one shows up then he will come and scrapbook with me anyway to keep me company.
And then there is tomorrow and I have to sit my test again and I really don't want to. Just give me the damn licence will ya????? grrrrrrr
And Lloyd has to work tomorrow and we also have to go to Ikea for a few things - and we both hate Ikea. I also have to go to Michaels to get some craft supplies for WEdnesday - I am doing a surprise craft at my group - it's still a surprise to me at the moment too lol.
I am kind of sick of Mandy and her mood swings. I am not feeling great myself right now and I feel that every time I say anything to her I say the wrong thing. Am I a bitch. Her children and husband just died 5 months ago. So I kind of feel like a bitch BUT I am the only friend who has hung around - I am the only friend that bothers with her - YET before the accident she didn't speak to me for a year. She was threatend with eviction from her house because she has hygiene issues - basically the place was disgusting with old food, clutter, garbage, not being cleaned etc etc so they were going to evict her. I suggested she see a therapist because normally there are reasons why people are the way she is (I was married to a therapist who treated these people for 10 years and I am a psychiatric nurse myself)
Anyway she cut me off completely for even suggesting it. So after the accident she wants to be friends again even though I didn't really know her. She practically moves into my home and starts telling me how to shop, how to cook, how to do stuff with the kids. And because she was grieving I let her!! I didn't say a thing - figured she needed to keep busy, needed to feel needed and wanted etc etc
But then it got too much and when she asked, I told her I couldn't do this as it was making me ill and we agreed to have a break for a while.
She came to collect all her stuff a couple of weeks ago and it was nice to chat with her again but she has come off of all her meds and her mood swings are terrible - one minutes she is all friendly and nice and the next whatever I say is wrong.
The thing is I am starting to think whay should I put up with this? I hardly know her. I am not related to her. I have tried and tried to be there for her and keep getting crapped on so surely enough is enough??? None of her other friends seem to be bothered that they don't see her any more so why am I left feeling guilty? Why do I have these guilt issues???
So I am ignoring her emails for now because I just don't want to get into it. If that makes me a bad person then so be it. I have tried and it hasn't worked and It is hard to stand by and be treated like that just because she has no one else. It isn't fair on me or my kids or Lloyd.
Phew - glad that is off my chest.
Thank you blog ;)
So last night was the very very last Friends. It wasn't that great. The one before that where Rachel said goodbye to everyone was really sad - but the actual last one was not very good.
I also don't get why they bothered giving Rachel a baby when she wasn't a mother - because she never seems to be bothered about the baby at all and that just is not normal - Ross didn't seem bothered - there was no big scene with Ross crying as emma was leaving with Rachel etc - there was none of that. I thought it was just a not great show for the last one :(
When Cold Feet in the UK finished it was very sad. And when Rachel died wow!!! And when Pet's wife left for America with his son he was crying at the airport and the little boy left his teddy bear behind and Pete was distraught about losing his son as well as his wife - that was real - they seemed like parents - Rachel never seemed like a parent at all. Odd
Last night was a great evening. When Lloyd got home we had the veggie pizza and some fries for dinner and then we drove to Zellers to buy the kids shoes - it was fun - I was in just the right mood to shop with 4 tired kids :) really! It was funny! The kids all got their shoes and I bought the boys a t-shirt each which they are pleased with. When we got home Laurie was saying how Lloyd doesn't like listening to him sing - I asked Laurie if he likes to sing and he said yes - so I told him it doesn't matter whether he is good or not if he enjoys it he should sing! So I started singing at the top of my voice - Over The Rainbow and Tomorrow and songs from Oliver - it was so funy - we were all singing!!! Then Lloyd ran a bath for me him and Abby and it was nice and relaxing. I was high as a kite for a while - ridiculously high - maybe it was the tablets I am taking lol! Woohoo :) but the kids had a fun evening and they have gone to school in their new shoes and t-shirts today :) Susie has her field trip so she wore a dress :)
Well, going for a shower and to have breakfast. Feeling a little better for writing here today. The day can only get better :)
Lloyd - if you read this - I love you!!!
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| time for tiredness? |
| 05.06.04 (4:45 pm) [edit] |
Ok so we all know its normal to be tired these days - everyone seems to feel tired a lot more these days - despite all these modern conveniences we all have to save time we seem to have less time these days.
How tired is normal though? You see when I tell people I am tired they look at me and say 'Of course you are tired' - because I ahve 4 children and a big house thats always clean and tidy. I have a 2 year old. I have no family close by (or even in the same country lol)
So yes I get that - I understand that it's normal to be tired.
But the tiredness I feel? The constant miserable exhaustion?? I exercise - I walk regularly with the stroller, almost daily. I don't sit still for long at home. I don't drive when things are near enough to walk (even if it's an hour walk there) I eat healthily, I take supplements. I drink plenty of water. I relax well - I have nightly massages. I go to bed at 10pm almost every night. I don't drink too much coffee - I don't drink any pop. I love vegetables. I love to swim.
When is too tired too tired??? Or when is it something else? depression? Because I don't feel depressed. I feel miserable because I have no energy or motivation and am soo damn tired, but I don't feel depressed.
Lloyd says he doesn't think my iron levels have gone up at all and thats the problem but I take iron every day :(
so I have to make the appt to go see the doc and see what he says :( he is very anti drugs and very pro healthy alternatives (he prescribed massage every night from Lloyd lol!)
Which reminds me - I felt so exhausted last night - I ran the bath and had lots of bubbles and was settling down to read my book when Lloyd came in and got in the bath with me - but first he brought up a box of matches and said he thought I might like some candles lit ;)
It was lovely and if he was hoping to get some then he went the right way about it and last night was veeeeerrrrrryyyyyyy nice ;) God I love that man!!!!
Mmmm think I am going to put the oven on - have dinner early as we have to go to zellers for some shoes for the kids. Abby hasn't slept today so I expect melt down while we shop for shoes :( fun fun fun.
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| recipe for cold veggie pizza |
| 05.06.04 (3:53 pm) [edit] |
Qutepie asked me if I could add the recipe for the pizza in the picture below - so here it is:
Take one tube of Pilsbury refrigerated JUMBO crescent rolls. Line an oven tray or pizza stone with them flat so it looks like one big pizza dough. Oven bake at 375 for about 20 minutes. Allow to cool.
Meanwhile mix 1 pkt of cream cheese with a cup of mayonaise. Add a table spoon of finely chopped dill. 2 cloves of garlic chopped finely and a little black pepper.
Smooth this over the baked pizza base.
finely chop and vegetables you like (I like to use broccoli, red, yellow and green peppers, sweetcorn, cheery tomatoes, red onion, carrot etc etc) and sprinkle all over the cream cheese mixture. Grate some cheddar or cheese of choice over the top. Its ready to eat straight away or refrigerate :)
mmmmmmmmmm
This is a pampered Chef recipe and at Christmas if you lay the rolled out cresents in the shape of a christmas tree then for a buffet you can decorate it with green vegetable to look like a tree then use strips of pepper to look like garlands and add half cherry tomatoes to look like balls on the tree and sweetcorn to look like fairy lights ;)
Geez I could soooooo take over Martha Stewarts job ;)
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| brighter day |
| 05.06.04 (3:23 pm) [edit] |
It's been a better day today. I didn't fall asleep until 2am last night :( felt like crap when I woke up. The kids left for school and Abby was still asleep so I tidied up and had a shower and she still slept! It was really nice having a shower alone :)
We walked over to Linda's this morning - it was cold out -1c but bright and sunny and it was only a 10 minute walk. Coffee was good. Penny doesn't seem to want to say what was wrong with her son (he was in hospital last week) but never mind - we chatted about various things. Monica says if I pass my test by next Thursday she will make my favourite food to have with coffee - so she is making cheesecake :) If I pass! :roll:
Susan didn't come this morning - haven't seen her for 2 weeks now.
On the way home we saw a yard sale and they had an easel for Abigail so I bought it. $15 Little Tikes Easel - I thought that was great as it's in perfect condition. I wanted to buy one anyway :)
I got a parcel from Mum so called to say thank you. She sent comics for the boys, a pair of shorts for Laurie and some hemp cream from the Body Shop for Susies hands and face - it is just so dry here!!
Chatted to mum for about 30 minutes - all kinds of stuff - she got her parcel from me this morning too - as did clare.
So this afternoon I baked, tidied the kitchen, played with Abby, and didn't even switch the computer on until 3:40pm wow!!! so un-me :)
The landscapers are coming next week to put the topsoil on our garden - do the fence posts and have it all graded before the sod is put down - they say it's a three week process as it all has to be checked etc etc.
I had an email from Mandy this morning - I deleted it and am not going to respond.
The tv station here is asking for people to apply to win an extreme makeover. Mandy wants to apply and asked if I would help her apply and take pictures of her etc - I said of course I would help her but that I didn't think she would win because rule no. 7 on the application says you have to be in excellent physical and mental health. She took offence basically and says there is nothing wrong with her mental health. I said that three days ago she told me she wasn't doing well and was looking forward to seeing her therapist because she felt she was holding too much inside again and was afraid to let it all out. She said she wasn't able to go to anywhere with new people and was generally very up and down. She wrote back and said she was fine now and it was just because she had moved into her own apartment.
I felt like sayingt hat a tv station is not going to invest thousands of dollars in someone who is grieving from the death of their children, husband, loss of job, loss of home, loss of friends, loss of role, dysfunctional family etc etc but I figure whats the point.
She tells me to be open with her be honest with her and say how I feel and when I do I get backlash from her.
I know she is going through a lot and I know I cant begin to understand but I don't feel I should have to take crap from her constantly just because she has no one else. It's not fair on me or my family.
So I deleted the message and am not getting into that argument with her.
The kids just got home - Susie was carrying a gift wrapped up for me for sunday awwwwww it looks lovely! She is excited about her field trip tomorrow. Laurie was thrilled with his Beano and new shorts that fit perfectly and they are on the phone to my Mum atm chatting about it all - it's 11pm ish back home but Mum never goes to bed early!
I bought the kids curly wurlies last night so they are eating them and excited about dinner because they just love cold veggie pizza.
Enough rambling - I am off to scrapbook for a while!
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| cold veggie pizza |
| 05.06.04 (2:58 pm) [edit] |
Well I just got through making dinner for tonight - cold veggie pizza mmmmmmm we all love this so much and it is just soooo good for you :) I wanted to show Mum what it looked like so I took this piccy :)
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Its a great way to get raw veggies into the kids :) mmmmmmmmmmmmmm
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| the day is done |
| 05.05.04 (6:44 pm) [edit] |
Thank goodness today is over with. 30 minutes and the kids will be in bed. they are showered and have eaten already so it won't be long before there is quiet and peace and space.
I hate days when Abigail doesn't nap and I feel I haven't had a break all day. I just feel burnt out. Exhausted emotionally and physically. I was in a bad mood all day which didn't help. Just so tired my eyes burn.
We went to Superstore this evening. Spent $163 on nothing - I swear there were about 5 things in the trolley :( I tried really hard not to put much in this time but still it was a lot of money. I hate grocery shopping. I hate stupidstore even more! Except they sell imported cadburys from back home. So I HAVE to go :P
I got the ingredients to make the cold veggie pizza - haven't had that in a while - mmmm my favourite pampered chef recipe!!
I am supposed to go to Lindas for coffee tomorrow with Monica, Penny and Susan. Danika wants to borrow Susie's ballet outfit for Friday so I will have a look for it. If I bother going. It would do me good to go but it means getting up and rushing about and then walking over there - and it's been snowing since yesterday off and on. Maybe I am just making excuses and I should just get up and go. I almost always enjoy it.
Well, I am going to switch the pc off as I ahve spent far too much time on it today - a sure sign I am feeling low - and a sure sign I have been stuck at home for too long which isn't doing me any good and I need to get out there and drive again so I can get my life back - it's been a looooooong two weeks.
I am going to go and soak in the bath and put the jets on and relax a while and read The Lovely Bones :)
Goodnight :)
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| things I have done |
| 05.05.04 (3:32 pm) [edit] |
Again I poached this from another site.
(x) I Have Been Drunk
( ) I Have Smoked Pot
( ) I Have Done Cocaine
( ) I Have Done Other Drugs
( ) I Have Thrown Up In A Bar
(x) I Have Flashed Someone
( ) I Have Posed Nude
(x) I Have Purchased Pornography
( ) I Have Been Caught Masturbating
( ) I Have Pissed On Myself
(x) I Have Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
(x) I Have Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
( ) I Have Made Out With A Stranger
( ) I Have Gone On A Blind Date
(x) I Have Been In Love
( ) I Have Been Dumped
(x) I Have Had Sex
(x) I Have Had Anal Sex
(x) I Have Had Sex In Public
( ) I Have Had Sex With A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) I Have Had Sex With A Co-Worker
( ) I Have Had Sex At The Office
( ) I Have Had Sex In A Dressing Room
( ) I Have Had Sex At A Friend's House During A Party
( ) I Have Had Sex / Hooked Up With A Friend's Sibling
( ) I Have Gotten Someone Drunk To Have Sex With Them
( ) I Have Had Sex With More Than 1 Person In The Same Week
( ) I Have Had A Threesome
( ) I Have Received Scars From My Sex Partner
(x) I Have Been Married
(x) I Have Been Divorced
( ) I Have Snuck Out Of My Parent's House
( ) I Have Cut Myself On Purpose
( ) I Have Killed Someone
( ) I Have Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire
( ) I Have Crashed A Friend's/Mom's Car
( ) I Have Shoplifted (if you count candy)
(x) I Have Stolen Something From My Job
( ) I Have Been Fired
(x) I Have Been In A Fist Fight
(x) I Have Been Tied Up
( ) I Have Been Arrested
(x) I Have Ridden In A Taxi
(x) I Have Lied To A Friend
(x) I Have Skipped School
( ) I Have Had A Crush On A Teacher
( ) I Have Celebrated Mardi-Gras In New Orleans
( ) I Have Celebrated New Years In Time Square
( ) I Have Been To Japan
(x) I Have Been To Europe
(x) I Have Been Snowboarding
(x) I Have Eaten Sushi
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| My last.................. |
| 05.05.04 (3:00 pm) [edit] |
stole this idea from another blog - can't remember which though sorry!
Last Cigarette: about 16 years ago - I only smoked about 3 in my life. disgusting habit - waste of money, bad for your health, annoying to others YUCK! smells gross
Last kiss: I kissed my kitten Bailey about 30 minutes ago and my daughter kissed me an hour ago.
Last cry: earlier today at a stupid tv commercial
Last library book checked out: Hilary Clintons Bio
Last Movie seen in a theatre: can't remember!!! Scooby Doo I think. How sad is that???
Last Book Read: I am reading The Lovely Bones and before that I read The Rescue by Nick Sparks
Last Cuss Word Uttered: For f*cks sake
Last Beverage Drank: orange juice with my iron supplement (spatone) in it.
Last food consumed: marmite on toast with a slice of cheese.
Last phone call: Lloyd to say it's ok I can take my test another day
Last TV show watched: Dr Phil's parenting 101 - I can't believe some parents!!!
Last time showered: 11am this morning
Last shoes worn: my smelly sandals
Last CD played: Message In a Bottle - the soundtrack in the car.
Last Soda Drank: At the weekend from Tim Hortons - it was hot but I wasn't in the mood for an Iced Capp
Last thing written: My Nans address on an envelope
Last key used: backspace
Last word spoken: okay
Last slept: last night
Last IM: I don't have IM but I say hi on tblurt now and then.
Last ice cream eaten: At the Zoo on Easter Day
Last time wanting to die: Just after Lloyd and I got together and I was scared it wasn't going to work out.
Last lipstick: one called mocha something or other from Avon
Last time dancing: This morning to a Wiggles tv show with Abby
Last show attended: Oliver the musical at CHristmas - my son was in it!
Last long car ride: To Jasper last summer I guess. Depends what you call long. Plenty of drives of an hour or two since then but Jasper was about 4 hrs
Last thing you smelled: my kitten - she smells of cookies except for her breath :(
Last annoyance: Abigail my 2 year old who smeared cookie and jam all over the sofa - I had already vacuumed the sofa 4 times today because of crumbs and spills and so it needs doing again :( heart breaking :(
Last disappointment: Abigail not wanting a nap today
Last time scolded: no idea lol! Maybe Lloyd telling me to not over react a few weeks back
Last Shirt Worn: a black tshirt this morning until I got too cold.
Last website visited: before tblog? www.linkingparents.com
Last song you listened to: Sarah Mclachlan 'Fallen'
Last person that made your heart skip a beat: Lloyd - the only man I am interested in. My Lloyd - always has been and always will be :)
Last movie watched: Where the Heart Is - last night
Watch it with anyone: Lloyd who fell asleep for the last 30 minutes on me :)
Last time you went to the mall: couple of weeks ago
Last person you wished you could "do": Lloyd - like I say - I'm really not interested in anyone else - which is a new feeling really because in all previous relationships I never felt this way :)
Last person you missed: Julie - my friend that died last year. I miss her voice and silly jokes
Last CD you bought: Sarah Mclachlans latest
Last beautiful thing you saw: my 2 year olds little face asking sweetly for a cookie and kissing me :)
Last lyric stuck in your head: 'by your side'............'when timothy goes to school' - stupid lyrics of a kids tv show lol! I have the dumb tune stuck in my head!
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| marmite |
| 05.05.04 (1:39 pm) [edit] |
Do you love it or hate it?
I love it - on toast mmmmmmmmmmmmm hate it on a sandwich. My ex hated it and hated the smell when I had eaten it, but luckily Lloyd likes it and doesn't mind the smell :)
Lloyd and I are perfect for each other :)
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| procrastinating |
| 05.05.04 (1:38 pm) [edit] |
I am sat here avoiding studying for my driving test which I have to attempt again tonight. I should switch the pc off and go study while there is peace and quiet. The kids finish school early and will be home in 30 minutes but still I sit here wasting time while Abigail sleeps. :?
I should want to pass my test and get it over with because I am going out of my mind with boredom being stuck at home. It's snowing outside and I am stuck home because I am unable to drive. I have a gorgeous brand new SUV to drive about in and plenty of places to go and friends to see but I am stuck at home because I have procrastinated for a year and not taken my test.
and still I sit here.........................................
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| judgmental??? me??? |
| 05.05.04 (9:43 am) [edit] |
Sometimes I am far too judgmental for my own good - I try not to be and I am really open minded but sometimes I wake up in the mood to be judgmental of everyone and everything.
I am not the worlds best mother - I make a lot of mistakes. But I have 4 kids and they all seem to be turning out to be great little people :) so I can't be doing too much wrong can I?
I do judge the way other people think though - especially on places like Linking Parents where people seem to just not think properly or they say the stupidest things about their parenting skills.
One thing I don't get is that on forums like LP people slag off their husbands. I just can't imagine doing that. Not in the way they do on there - like they really hate them. Why are they still married? Why do they put up with it all? And the people who moan about having no money and struggling to cope financially and then write to say they have bought a big entertainment centre on one of those buy now pay later things - how dumb is that???? Do they think they are going to win the lottery by next year???? Do they think??????
And then Tara who goes on and on about the days she spends at the spa each month and buying this that and the other off of ebay and going shopping and violin lessons for her daughter and dancing lessons for her - she's 3!!!!!! and then yesterday she starts talking on LP about how they are struggling financially!!! duh!!!!!! A 3 year old does NOT need violin lessons - a 3 year old DOES need electricity and heat and food in the cupboards.
See - I am judgmental.
I commented in a blog to someone about punishing their 2 year old by putting her outside and opening the door and asking if she still hates her - I didn't understand what point she was making to a 2 year old by this. I wasn't judging her - just puzzled over the idea is all. Or maybe I was judging her. The kid is 2.
On the subject of 2 year olds, Abigail loves Dora The Explorer - Dora calls the bugs bugga buggas or something - so now if Abby sees a bug she yells BUGGER!!!! that might not be a good thing.
I guess what worries me about the 2 yr old and the hate thing is that as a psychi nurse and counsellor I have treated a number of people - mainly womern who grew up being told that expressing their feelings and anger was a bad thing - they internalised everything and it lead to mental health problems when they grew up - inability to express their emotions properly, hiding it inside or becoming violent or angry too easily, or getting eating disorders and the like.
So yes I can be a judgmental bitch sometimes but thats because I am always right and I know everything ;)
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| A good Canadian |
| 05.05.04 (7:43 am) [edit] |
Awwww WEndy just called and asked if I wanted a ride to the group this morning - she is such a nice person! Sometimes she doesn't think before she speaks lol (ie a friend of ours opened up emotionally about being anorexic and wendy blurted out how she wished she was anorexic lol and another time one lady was talking about her very sick neice who was being tube fed and wendy said how great it would be to be tube fed forever!! duh!!! lol but really she doesn't mean anything bad by it - she just doesn't think and I really really like her.
Some Canadians aren't so bad ;)
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| Hump Day |
| 05.05.04 (7:28 am) [edit] |
I had never heard of 'HUmp Day' until about three weeks ago when a friend told me to have a good one. I don't mind Wednesdays usually. I tend to be busy. I go to a group (normally) on a wednesday. and once a month the kids finish early from school on the wednesday (today they finish early)
Today is going to be a crap day - I can already tell.
I woke up in a bad mood and after the kids left for school I realised their idea of tidying up is to throw everything into Abigails toy box - hairbrush and anti tangle spray, dirty clothes, plates and cups.............grrrrr
Still, they left happy for school and I will have forgotten by the time they get home.
I sent a quiz to Lloyd at work just now - got it from someones blog - I forget which. Here are his responses anyway - about me :)
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
no idea right now would need to think about it.
2. Am I lovable?
absolutley
3. How long have you known me
forever
4. When and how did we first meet?
as neighbours back in 80
5. What was your first impression?
a good one
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
sure
7. What do you think my weakness is
chcolate
8. Do you think I'll get married?
sure
9. What makes me happy?
me and chocolate
10. What makes me sad?
not having any chocolate
11. What reminds you of me?
lots of things in every day life
12. If you could give me anything what would it be? swimming pool
13. How well do you know me?
v well
14. When's the last time you saw me?
this morning
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
no
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
no
17. Describe me in one word
thoughtful
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
always stronger
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
yes
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
don;t have one
21. Who'd you get this from?
my baby
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We watched 'Where The Heart Is' last night - the movie about the pregnant girl that moved into Walmart. It was quite good - sweet movie.Loooooong because of the stupid commercial breaks - I swear it would hvae only been on about 30 minutes without commercial breaks every other minute!! That makes me nuts.
I think it's snowing. Very very fine. Such crazy weather here that it can go from 26c to snowing almost over night. I loooong for summer! Summer storms and watching the kids run about the garden under the sprinkler!
Think I will go and read some of The Lovely Bones.
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| psycho woman |
| 05.04.04 (2:51 pm) [edit] |
Stupid psycho Lisa called me this afternoon - I can't believe that woman. I go to a moms group every Wednedsya morning - they have babysitting for the kids while us moms chat and drink coffee by the gallon ;) anyway a few weeks backa new woman joined - Lisa - she said she was lonely and her social worker had recommended the group. I can understand that - I have moved from city to city since I was a teen so I understand how hard it can be to meet people - so I invited her over for coffee - but she won't go anywhere just invited everyone to her home. So she calls me the first week and within five minutes has told me her life story - including money problems and marriage problems :roll:
I decide not to get too involved one to one but say she is welcome to come along to the walking group I go to etc. She never does and so the week before last I call her up and ask if she wants to join a few of us with our strollers for a walk. She says 'my mum and gran are here bye' and hangs up - those exact words really fast and hangs up - I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye let alone 'ok well another time then....' lol!
And the next day at the moms group she ignores me totally. Last week she said hi and then looked away.
So today she calls me up and askes if I want to go to a candle party on the 12th. I say it depends on whether I have my licence by then - at which point she gets funny saying I already have my licence!! I explain that I had my international that ran out. She then says I could geta ride with another lady. I say maybe and I will let her know nearer the time - I have explained endless times that I tend to be a spur of the moment type of person rather than thinking ahead too far and making plans I forget. She gets funny saying she needs to know. So I ended it by saying 'I won't know until next week, sorry about that bye!' Geez if she can hang up like that on me the other week then so can I grrrrrrrrr
Stupid psycho woman - she has lived here 5 years has 2 kids and knows no one and doesn't even know what is available for kids to do in the area - and now I can see why!!!!!
On a brighter note I was chatting via email to Mandy - she asked if I could use her childrens cough syrup and also her coffee pot. I said sure to the syrup but I'm not sure what a coffee pot does lol - she says it brews - we tend to use instant so I haven't a clue about brewing lol!
I have made the kids sandwiches for school tomorrow - I cut up one of the chicken breasts I cooked last night, and mixed it with a little mayo and paprika. I also gave them a piece of cake that I made earlier - I feel like a good mommy today - maybe this book 'The Lovely Bones' is just making me feel very motherly and protective - or maybe because it's Camerons birthday this week. Its making me realise how lucky I am - that my children are alive and healthy and I get to celebrate Mothers Day this weekend. Mandy doesn't - it's too sad - far too sad and unfair :(
Abby keeps making me laugh - the little pot of her cream is by the computer and she comes and asks for some every now and then to rub into her hands and face - it smells so good. Sometimes I say no if she has had too much - so when I say yes she kisses my hand thankyou :) sweetie pie.
She fed Bailey for me today - I found Baileys water bowl full of her food - yuck!
Dinner is ready on the stove top for later - chicken tikka masala mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
ok I have calmed down a bit now - oooooh this blog is good therapy - as is Lloyd - I call him at work and moan to him - I always thank him for listening to me moan - he's a sweetheart.
It is getting grey out now and stormy - they forecast thunderstorms this afternoon - it's been gorgeous all day after the heavy rain last night. My hurricane lamp on the deck was filled with water this morning.
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| choccy cake |
| 05.04.04 (12:04 pm) [edit] |
I decdied to make some cakes for the kids when they get home from school - but the eggs in the fridge were out of date 2 weeks ago so I threw them away and searched for an egg free choccy cake:
1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 cup white sugar
3 tbsps cocoa powder
1 teaspoon baking powder
5 tablespoons vegetable oil
2 tablespoons vinegar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 teaspoon salt
1 cup cold water
1 Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease and flour an 8x8 inch baking pan.
2 In a large bowl, combine dry ingrediants. Mix well with a fork, then stir in oil, vinegar, and vanilla extract. When dry ingredients are thoroughly moistened, pour in cold water and stir until batter is smooth.
3 Bake in preheated oven for 30 minutes, until a toothpick inserted in center comes out clean. Cool on a rack.
It came out well - kind of like home made brownies - you could add walnuts to it mmmmmm and it was so fast!!! They say you can frost it or sprinkle the top with choc chips and they melt on the top like frosting!!! I like it plain though :)
Mmmm Abby is putting cream on her hands - its a free sample of 'roganic milk' from The Body Shop and it smells divine!! Leaves your skin so soft and smells just gorgeous!!
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| feeling arty lol |
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a couple more lol. oh the things I do when I'm bored ;)
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| Its me :) |
| 05.04.04 (9:50 am) [edit] |
I'm bored this morning so thought I would mess about with the camera and the mirror - took this piccy of me - it's not great and don't forget I have done NOTHING to my hair today - it's how it was when I got out of bed - AND I had no sleep last night so feel like crap but all in all not too bad a piccy really :)
Gonna take some black and white ones in a mo too :)
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| bed head |
| 05.04.04 (8:07 am) [edit] |
Well the good thing about getting almost no sleep is that I don't have bed hair!!!! My hair isn't stuck out at all angles like it normally is :) I look half normal today :)
I am supposed to take my written driving test again today but we shall see - I am not sure doing it after a night of no sleep is a good idea. I will see how I feel later.
I should call Shawna - we were supposed to meet up today if the weather stays dry but it rained heavily last night - I should also call Angela and order the soap pumps too. I should email Tara too and arrange to meet up later this week - and also Carole Anne to check about Friday night. but all I feel like doing is crawling back to bed. Think I will go back to bed and watch some crappy daytime tv for a while ;) Read some books to Abby and stick some toys on the bed with us :) she can play happily while I snooze!!
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| bed head |
| 05.04.04 (8:07 am) [edit] |
Well the good thing about getting almost no sleep is that I don't have bed hair!!!! My hair isn't stuck out at all angles like it normally is :) I look half normal today :)
I am supposed to take my written driving test again today but we shall see - I am not sure doing it after a night of no sleep is a good idea. I will see how I feel later.
I should call Shawna - we were supposed to meet up today if the weather stays dry but it rained heavily last night - I should also call Angela and order the soap pumps too. I should email Tara too and arrange to meet up later this week - and also Carole Anne to check about Friday night. but all I feel like doing is crawling back to bed. Think I will go back to bed and watch some crappy daytime tv for a while ;) Read some books to Abby and stick some toys on the bed with us :) she can play happily while I snooze!!
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| bl**dy Lovely Bones |
| 05.04.04 (7:27 am) [edit] |
OMG NEVER read Lovely Bones just before you go to sleep at night. I started the book last night and OMG I didn't sleep at all really and for the two hours I finally caved in and slept, I had the most god awful dreams ever. In the first one it was about death and body parts and murder and in the second one it was Susie who died and they wrapped her in this weird rubber backed blanket and placed her on my lap and I could talk to her telepathically through the blanket (which covered her whole body and head) and say things like 'it's ok, you can go now' and 'you will always be in my heart and you will always feel safe - just remember how it feels to be in my arms' etc. We had to share a funeral with another family and it was all so weird - I sat in this remembrance garden holding her and then they brought the coffin out for me to put her in with all our loved ones lookng through the doors. The other mother seemed to do fine but I was lying on the floor crying and remember I could see Sarah watching me to see how I was reacting.
Anyway - I was awake when Lloyd got up for work and he said Susie was sitting on my big chair downstairs as she couldn't sleep so he sent her up to me and we cuddled for an hour ebfore she got up for school. I was very grateful she was alive and well (and she even called back 'I will be a good girl when I come home from school today' as she walked off for the bus earlier!! she was a real pain last night after school and was sent to her room!)
Anyway I was very grateful she was alive and it got me thinking that Mandy has that nightmare every night but when she wakes up it is still real. She will never get to cuddle with Ashley and Cameron again. I can't imagine. I'm not like most people - I don't say 'OMG how can she go on living' I don't think like that. But I can't begin to imagine how it feels to lose both of your children in a split second like that.
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| smelling good |
| 05.03.04 (4:58 pm) [edit] |
Mmmm I have chicken roasting in the oven and it smells good - Lloyd called to say he is on his way home from work - with my new book :) and he is stopping off to get me some money out AND to buy a chocolate cream pie :)
You would imagine that we would be huge lol - but Lloyd is stick thin and I am just a bit more than I should be ;) But we like a nice dessert in the evening with our fup of tea lol! I swear we are turning into old farts - in bed by 10pm and no matter how I try I just can't stay awake until midnight. I even catch myself saying things my mother used to say that made me roll my eyes :roll:
Still, the chocolate cream pie from Sobeys is to die for!!!
And as for the chicken - I am serving it with roast poatoes (roasted separately from the chicken so they are crispy on the outside and fluffy on the inside, and peas, carrots and a little broccoli.
I love chicken. I love bacon and I love a good steak - apart from that I am not big on meat - I was vegan for a couple of years - mainly because this man I really fancied was vegan and becoming vegan gave me a good excuse to talk to him lol! I was young and stupid ;)
I came to my senses after 2 years without chocolate. Can you imagine??? 2 f*cking years without chocolate!! Don't worry - I have made up for it since then ;) although it has taken me almost 2 years to get used to Canadian chocolate tot he point I can enjoy it - I weaned myself onto it slowly. I prefer Canadian cadburys creme eggs now. Lloyd bought me 16 of them after Easter - they reduced them all so he grabbed the lot - too funny! But by the time I give the kids one each and Lloyd has a couple and Abigail has found my secret stash and stolen a couple - there weren't many left!!
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It should be illegal for kids to eat chocolate - it should be made into an over 18's thing - that way I could enjoy my chocolate without feeling guilty or that I had to share it - and I wouldn't have to lock myself in my bedroom to enjoy it ;)
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| feelin' good |
| 05.03.04 (3:33 pm) [edit] |
I am feeling quite good this morning despite having done loads today!!!
4 baskets of laundry packed away,
two loads of laundry washed,
about 8 shirts and 4 tshirts and a pair of jeans ironed
downstairs vacuumed throughout
downstairs dusted throughout, kitchen cleaned
All bathrooms cleaned included the big tub
cat litter tray cleaned
Abigail read to, played with, dressed and changed
potatoes peeled ready to be roasted. Chicken prepped and in oven.
loaded dishwasher
stripped our bed
watered plants
and while I prepped the spuds I cut some for Abigail to do some potato stamping with (see attached pics - she loved it).
I also watched my scrapbooking show while Abby had her nap. Oh I have to go and upload the pics. [image]Janemma_264524488.jpg[/image] [image]Janemma_922851815.jpg[/image]
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| Lovely Bones????? |
| 05.03.04 (11:59 am) [edit] |
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Has anyone read this book? Lloyd bought it for me today and is bringing it home after work - I saw it recommended on a website yesterday so thought I would read it - is it any good??? Opinions?????
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My 2 year old Abigail loves to make me pretend cups of tea with her tea set - oh how I wish this morning that it was real cups of tea she was bringing me. It would be nice to have someone bringing me cups of tea and plates of cake all day long ;)
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| why???? |
| 05.03.04 (9:38 am) [edit] |
Why do people ask how you are and then totally ignore everything you say and just carry on talking about themselves???
I never do that - I always go out of my way to ask how someone is and then when they reply I always listen and say something about it in return. Even if it is 'oh thats good' or 'I'm so sorry to hear that - is there anything I can do to help?'
This morning Mandy emailed me and was telling me about her weekend - she ended it by saying 'how was your weekend?' so I replied and mentioned some of the things about her weekend before saying that I had failed my test and also had fallen and bruised myself badly.
She wrote back more stuff about herself but didn't mention anything that I had written about me. I guess I just feel ignored and a bit sad that obviously my weekend and problems mean nothing.
That in itself makes me feel really selfish as I know she is having a bad week and is allowed to be self-involved atm - but I can't help the way I feel can I? You know when you tell someone that you are hurting and they don't even respond then you are within your rights to feel hurt right?
So I do. I feel let down because as much as she is going through and as much as I will never understand what she is going through - I also thought she would always take the time to ask about me too.
Like it mattered and wasn't just something to say by habit.
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| Happy Monday |
| 05.03.04 (8:02 am) [edit] |
Monday morning - it soon comes round. I do and I don't like Mondays. Monday means chores! Lots of them - getting the house straight after the weekend. Cleaning the floor, vacuuming the whole house, cleaning bathrooms and catching up on laundry. Fun fun fun. But then again I like the peace of a Monday after a house full all weekend. I like my space and I like having the house clean and tidy again so that I can start my week.
I used to be a packrat. I was terrible - I kept EVERYTHING. I lived in a huge Victorian house in England that had this enormous spare bedroom - but you couldn't get in through the door because it was full to the ceiling of 'stuff'. It was like Monica's secret junk cupboard on Friends - open the door and it all falls out.
I kept the first condom packet from my ex. I kept the paper cup from our first date lol! I kept absolute rubbish!
Then I decided it was time to get rid of it all so I read lots of books about decluttering and getting organized. I threw out a ton of stuff and had the thrift store come and collect a whole truck load of 'stuff'. I felt so cleansed :lol:
And so these days I hate clutter - I have been clutter free for about 6 years. I go through the drawers and cupboards regularly and throw things out and I like space and being tidy - it helps me think and cope with 4 children and a busy life.
Luckily Lloyd is also very tidy and hates clutter too - we are perfect for each other.
So Mondays I get the house straight and it sets me up for the week ahead.
Shawna called to ask if I want to go for a walk this afternoon. Today is the only day it is supposed to be nice weather. BUt I am not sure I am up to it. I will give it another hour and call her back. Shawna and I go walking every week - usually just once a week but we walk all afternoon with the strollers. I always enjoy it when we go but today I still feel crummy so I'm not sure..........
Lloyd just called to say hi - he chatted to Abigail too - she always yells into the phone 'Hi..........it's me!!!' very sweet. When she said goodbye she hugged the phone and blew a kiss. She loves her Daddy. She woke up at 4:50am and I went in to get her - brought her back to our bed and she slept until 8am which was nice. It was getting light at 5am and the back door to the deck was still open - we sleep with it open most nights now.
This is the first week I feel really stuck not being able to drive. I haven't been able to drive for 3 weeks now. I am taking my test again tomorrow. Please let me pass! I really need to pass. I neeeeeeed to be out driving again and not stuck at home like this.
Mandy wrote to say how the move went this weekend - she moved into her own apartment on Saturday. Tara stayed over on the Saturday night so last night was the first night she was alone in her own place since the children died. I'll call her later. It would have been Camerons birthday this week - what with that and Mothers Day this week, and moving into her own place, and having to sort through the childrens things..................a tough week :( and I can't drive to go and visit her :(
Well I have to go and pop this mornings pills grooooaaaan. I will give it until the end of the week to see if they make a difference.
I asked Lloyd if he would pay for me to have my boobs reduced. He looked at me like I was nuts and asked why on earth I thought he would pay to have them made smaller lol! Bigger yes but smaller?????? I hate my boobs - they are far too big in my opinion and I would love to be able to wear skimpy little tops - in fact any tps without my boobs being the only noticeable thing. In pictures they are the first thing I notice - they just always look big and round like my Nan :roll:
Well, I am off to finish the vacuuming and dusting then I am going to dive into the shower and try to wake myself up!
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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| chronic fatigue and stuff |
| 05.02.04 (6:31 pm) [edit] |
I have been searching on the web about fatigue and the way I am feeling. Think I am going to see the doctor and get more tests done because this just can't be normal - I thought maybe through the winter it was just winter blues or lack of fresh air lol (even though I was rarely at home) but now the hot weather is here and I am feeling even worse :(
Most of the pages I read say that the supplements I am taking to help make no difference :(
we shall see. Here's hoping in a few days I am back to feeling like me again.
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| dark skies are looming |
| 05.02.04 (4:17 pm) [edit] |
It has been sunny and hot all day 25 or 26c all day but with a hot wind blowing. The skies are coming over very dark so it looks as though we may geta storm - the first thunderstorm of the year??? I love summer storms - they are so dramatic and moody - especially with the threat of tornadoes here in AB. I have never seen a tornadoe and I hope we are never in one but it would be cool to see one from a distance.
The kids have been at the playground almost all day - they come home for snacks and drinks and then disappear again coming back dirty and tired but look as though they had a great time and they sleep so well.
We are doing a mad dash round tidying up now and I need to throw some laundry on really. Then we can relax and have a lazy sunday evening.
Lloyd and I drove over to Home Depot for a while and also stopped at drugmart and had our blood pressure and pulse read. Lloyds was 129/70 and his pulse was 88 and mine was 115/80 and my pulse was 66.
Lloyd had an Iced Capp today - his first of the summer I think. I had diet coke - for some reason I can't face Iced Capp's this year and it was too hot for coffee. I wanted something like Sprite.
Chris's friend Tia is here atm making him spell really long words lol! Chris is a total brain!!! Honours student in every subject - knows far more than I know already.
Think I'm going to go help Lloyd make bacon sarnies!!
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| popping pills |
| 05.02.04 (8:26 am) [edit] |
So I am awake at last - I said goodbye to Lloyd as he left for work at 6am or just before and then I was asleep again in seconds with Abigail curled up beside me. She slept with us all night. She seems to sleep in her cot 3 or 4 nights a week now and in with us the rest of the time. Sometimes it drives me nuts and sometimes I love it so much as I wake up with her nestled into my shoulder!!
Abigail has a wart on the palm of her right hand - it's being treated with some meds the Doc gave us. Her 'Owie' must irritate her at times though lol - Lloyd was saying how he woke in the night and she was asleep but in her sleep she was rubbing her warty hand across his face - obvioulsy his stubble felt good against it - too funnny!! I think he was a little grossed out but he forgives her anything. His love for her is totally unconditional. Thats what a parent should be like. I don't think I'm that good a person.
So anyway - I'm up now - the boys are getting ready to go and do the flyers (flyer day rolls around far too quickly grooooooooan) and I am sat here with my Tims mug full of coffee that Lloyd made me 3 hours ago. Its good. I popped my pills - the chromium and the vitality one and the magnesium. I swear I rattle if you shake me. I hate popping pills but with luck this will help me feel more like me.
So Lloyd is working today - he has his own business and is contracted to different companies etc and right now the one he is working for is really busy so he is making the most of it - he is paid by the hour so the more hours he does the more money he gets - and we have to fence the yard, sort the garden out, pay for the school buses and fees for next year and pay for the puppy as well as pay for a weeks vacation - so all in all he needs to get every extra hour he can.
But like I tried to explain to him - when he works weekends it means I work weekends because it means I don't get a break either. So although I understand why he is working - and that its for us - don't expect me to be pleased about it.
Sundays mornings = bacon sarnies for brunch - made by Lloyd - so lastweek and this week he hasn't made them because he has worked. :( I WANT MY BACON SARNIES!!!!!! and they never taste the same if they make them yourself.
Next week is Mothers Day - he is NOT working then!!!
So Lloyd will be home around 2:30pm today and then I am not sure what we are doing. It's supposed to be 22c today but windy so they say it won't feel as nice as yesterday. Maybe we will go for a walk or something which we never did yesterday - or maybe take the kids swimming or something. Maybe drive over to WEM to the import store. All the kids want to do is spend the day in the playground with their friends lol.
Maybe we could take the stale bread and go and feed the geese at the lake in town.
If I could do anything today? Anywhere? I would drive into Edinburgh, park at the Castle car park and walk through Princes Street gardens, do a little shopping on Princes Street, buy a Thorntons ice cream and then sit in Princes Street Gardens while the kids play and ride the carousel. Then I would walk up to the Royal Mile and look out over the city. I would stop at the Gyle and buy a sunrise muffin from Starbucks and getting a few groceries in Marks and Spencers, and then I would hold Lloyds hand while he drives us home to Wellview. And we would have chinese delivered from The Purple Sage. Mmmmmmmmmm
I miss the hustle and bustle of high street shopping - malls just aren't the same. I miss the crowds, the history, the old buildings, the traffic.
I love the weather here in AB. I love the snow, I love the constant sunshine. I love the safe feeling here. I love the cost of everything. I love the educatin system, I love Tim Hortons! but thats about it.
My Daughter has a canadian accent - I hate it. I know I shouldn't and I know it's not her fault but she has that whiny little girls canadian accent that drives me nuts! Why do they whine??? They don't do that back home. I keep telling her to talk properly but it's not her fault - all 6 year old girls talk that way. In the same annoying way that parents here are constantly saying 'gooood jooooooob!' to their kids in this stupid voice - do they think if they don't talk in baby voice their kids won't understand?
Hopefully when I feel better physically my blogs will cheer up. I'm really not depressed but when I ramble like this it all comes out negative.
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| big bruised bum |
| 05.01.04 (7:57 pm) [edit] |
I have a hude bruise on the cheek of my bum!!! It hurts to sit on the chair at the pc. Going to go and curl up and watch Bridget Jones with Lloyd, drink tea and eat a mega piece of cocolate cream pie - because if I make my bum bigger then next time I fall it won't hurt as much - I can just bounce off my big bum.
The supplements I am taking have made my pee go dayglo yellow - too funny!!!! My whole blog all week has had a bathroom theme. I'm really not obsessed with it as it seems at first glance of my blog.
But it would be good if Lloyd and the boys had dayglo pee because then it might help them get it in the actual toilet!!!!
Enough!!! gonna put the kettle on and make a cup of tea and sit and watch the movie.
Goodnight all!
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| spaggy bog |
| 05.01.04 (5:50 pm) [edit] |
I made spaghetti bolognaise with salad and garlic bread on the side and it looked really good but a couple of mouthfuls and I relaised I just wasn't in the mood. I've never been keen on pasta with tomato based sauces. Give me alfredo any time and I am happy but not the tomato based sauces - even with the wine sauce tonights was in.
So everyone else enjoyed theirs and I gave up and checked to see what movies are on tonight. Whale Rider which DH doesn't fancy, Bridget Jones - would make me homesick. Or Matchstick Men on PPV.
Or I can soak in the bath while DH lies on the bed and watched the INdiana Jones DVD's I got for his birthday.
It's May!!! Wow!! Already!!! :)
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| thoughtless friends |
| 05.01.04 (5:12 pm) [edit] |
You know what really pisses me off? there are a group of people here that say they are friends but they only EVER call me when they want me to buy something from them. One girl - K - has never called me except when she wants me to buy something from her pampered chef business. So I haven't heard from her since December except for three emails - none even asking how I am - just asking me to buy stuff to help her reach her target. Another friend S hasn't bothered to call for months and months except for an emailassking me to sponsor her for something - oh and one to but tupperware from her.
Last year K had never called me - she would come over for tea every few weeks and then one day she called me and asked if I was busy - I was so thrilled - atlast!!! she had called to do something!!! But no!!! She asked me to baysit her kid!!!! I agreed even though it was family picnic day at my kids school and I ended up having to take her with me - she was a sweet kid and no trouble but it pissed me off that the only time this woman has ever called is if she wants something
So I NEVER respond to any of her emails any more - you'd think she would get the hint but NO - this morning I get another email from her asking to buy bloody books for her to meet her target for the month.
Well friends like her can f*ck off.
If Mandys accident taught me anything it taught me that friends like that just aren't worth the effort.
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| Sunny Saturday |
| 05.01.04 (4:19 pm) [edit] |
Its about 24c out atm and gorgeous with no wind. We ahve been out on the deck most of the afternoon. Lloyd is just no good at sitting still though so he decided to mark out the patio ready for if the landscapers come next week to put the sod down. The patio is going to be big - plenty of room for the table and chairs, some tubs of plants and Abigails sandbox as well as for her to ride her trike round and round. I will be so happy when the fence is up and the patio and grass are done. Poor Abby is restricted to the deck and we have tied a baby gate to the top of the steps so she can't get off of the deck.
On a bright note we filled her empty sandbox up with warm water and she used it as a paddling pool all afternoon. She took her swimming costume off though 'because it's wet!'
Well I took my written driving test this morning. I failed :( I am really mad at myself as one of the ones I got wrong was one that I changed the answer to at the last second :( If I hadn't changed my answer I would have passed :( You should never second guess yourself huh? Nearly all my questions were about what happenes when you get your licence suspended etc - what does that have to do with driving???? Surely the questions should be about actually driving and not about being suspended???????
So I have to take it again early next week :( I am so sad.
I also walked out of the office and tripped off of the sidewalk and made a complete fool of myself - fell onto a car and twisted all my ankle and leg up to my knee. It really hurts :(
We drove down to Petsmart and found some spray that cats hate - we are going to try it in the sandbox to see if it keeps Bailey out. Not sure what else to do if it doesn't work :( I can't keep throwing sand away and buying more because Bailey pee's in it.
We went to Toys R Us to geta bike for Susie too but they didn't have any 18" ones in stock and 20" was just too big. She was really sad - we stopped off at Walmart too but still no 18" bikes. So she still has no bike. We bought Chris a soccer ball and Laurie a kite though so they were happy.
We might go for a drive tonight - maybe take the kids to Elk Island Park or maybe into the city to walk along the river valley parks or something.
Today is national scrapbooking Day. We went to the scrapbook store. Sharon was in there - I just avoided her and hid in the back until she left - I really didn't want to get stuck talking to that miserable lady. They were giving free balloons, badges and hotdogs to the kids and there was a big sale and also 20% off your purchases for the day. Lloyd bought me a new album for Mothers Day and I bought a few stickers etc - oh and the cutest little silver brads shaped like baby feet :)
The kitchen is such a mess - I really should go and tidy up before dinner. I just feel like lying on the deck in the sun instead though.
I bought a load of supplements this afternoon. Chromium, magnesium and calcium and a multivit/mineral with ginseng etc that is supposed to give you more energy - we shall see. Something has to work - maybe I should take the whole bottle at once!!! Geez the tablets look like something you would give a horse - they are HUGE!!! Either that or something you shove up your bum!!!
So glad summery weather is here!!
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