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Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.
Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.
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| 04.30.04 (5:03 pm) [edit] |
Friday please end. Please be bedtime so I can crawl into my cosy bed and sleep and wake up in a better mood tomorrow. Its almost 6pm and DH is still at work - on a Friday - and the boys are still delivering those shitty flyers and the girls are bored and I am just not in the mood. I want to soak in the bath or sleep on the deck or just forget Friday and go straight to saturday.
I am brain dead - can't think of naything to write, anything interesting to sya except to moan - maybe I should go and get in the bath until Lloyd finally calls to say he is on his way home. Maybe then I will cheer up.
Some days call for strong drugs or stiff drinks. I could do with both. Or strong caffiene. anything strong!!!!
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oh...................................ok..........................Lloyd is forgiven. He just called me from work and said to run myself a bath and get in and relax and he will come home and make dinner after stopping off for a few groceries and some treats for tnight.
ok so now I feel like crap and feel guilty lol! But it's just what I need - he's had a long day so I appreciate it all the more. I love him so much. He always says the right thing to make everything ok.
Going to pour myself a big big glass of water and go sit in the bath. geez I know how to live ;)
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| Saturn Return |
| 04.30.04 (3:30 pm) [edit] |
I found this article last year. I had been researching my Saturn Return. I used to study astrology, so I was well aware that I hit my Saturdn Return when I was 29. Now I am 32 and have left my Saturn Return way in the past, but it was interesting to read more about it and realise how accurate it all was where my life was concerned. Anyway for those who know nothing about it here you go:
Saturn Return
Many of us approach our thirtieth birthdays with anxiety, even dread. We start looking for gray hairs and paying attention to ads for wrinkle creams. We question whether we are climbing the career ladder quickly enough. We hear the biological clock ticking loudly and worry that soon we will be too old to bear children.
Astrologers call the period between ages twenty-eight and thirty "Saturn Return." That's because it's the first time the planet Saturn completes its cycle through your birth chart and returns to the spot it occupied when you were born. Internationally respected astrologer Rob Hand calls Saturn Return "one of the most important times in your life. . . a time of endings and new beginnings."
For most of us, ending a phase of life that is familiar and embarking on one that is new and untried is unsettling, even painful. Few people describe Saturn Return as a pleasant period. While undergoing your Saturn Return you may find yourself turning inward and reflecting on your individual destiny. You examine your true needs and desires and the role you want to play on the world's stage. You may feel lonely and alienated from those around you, while family and friends think you are shutting them out. But this is a necessary period of consolidation, when you must retreat from the distractions of the outer world and focus on yourself at your most fundamental level. The Saturn Return is every individual's search for the Holy Grail.
Coming of Age
The first Saturn Return marks the end of youth and the beginning of the productive adult years. It is now that you truly become an adult--not at eighteen or twenty-one. You realize your need to define yourself as an individual within society and to demonstrate what you've learned. Newswoman Jane Pauley described turning thirty as having grown into womanhood. German film director Werner Herzog compared this period in his life with a maiden's loss of virginity, a line drawn across his path marking the end of his youth.
This transition into adulthood is often accompanied by a sense of urgency, a feeling that you must try to accomplish everything you've ever wanted or planned to do now. Goals start to come sharply into focus. If you have not settled into a definite career, or have been pursuing one that is inappropriate for you, you'll experience a strong push to establish yourself in a more fulfilling occupation. Sometimes this means a complete change. During his first Saturn Return Vincent Van Gogh decided to be a painter rather than a minister. More frequently it means a new direction or specialization within your chosen field.
If you have been building steadily toward a goal that's right for you, Saturn Return can be a time of achievement and rewards. Your labors bear fruit. Runner Bill Rodgers' Saturn Return marked the first of three consecutive Boston Marathon wins. William Faulkner published his first novel at age twenty-nine.
According to California astrologer Stephen Arroyo, author of Astrology, Karma and Transformation, "The quality of the entire experience and the extent to which it is felt to be a 'difficult' time depends entirely on how one has lived during the previous twenty-nine years." If you have been pursuing an unsuitable vocation or merely fulfilling someone else's expectations, Saturn can be relentless in prodding you to make adjustments.
Revising Worn Out Patterns
Saturn strips away illusions and points out limitations, allowing you to view yourself in a harsh, often unflattering light. At the same time, it endows you with prudence, practicality, and the perseverance to work hard toward achieving your purposes. Consequently, this is a good time to rearrange your career or lay the foundation for a new one.
Saturn Return almost always requires some major adjustments in lifestyle, attitudes, and relationships. Anything you have outgrown, or have tolerated but not found satisfying, must end now or be altered to meet your emerging needs. According to Hand, "Consciously or unconsciously, you are pruning your life of everything that is not relevant to what you really are as a human being."
Often interpersonal relationships are deeply affected by Saturn Return. Gail Sheehy writes in Passages: Predictable Crises in Adult Life that during this period "Almost everyone who is married will question that commitment." The U.S. Census Bureau lists the peak divorce years as ages twenty-eight to thirty. Some people experience more subtle or private adjustments in their patterns of relating, such as shifts in responsibilities. Many couples decide to become parents, not only altering their relationships but their financial obligations and perhaps their vocations as well.
If a relationship is sound, based on mutual respect, honesty, and sharing, it will probably survive the test of Saturn Return and become even stronger. But a relationship begun before the partners knew what they really wanted is likely to fall apart. Relationships that start during this period may have a "fated" or "karmic" quality about them.
When Enough is Enough
"Saturn. . . is never easy to deal with because his function is that of promoting growth," explains astrologer Liz Greene, author of Saturn: A New Look at an Old Devil, "and it is only frustration and pain which at present are sufficient goads to get a human being moving." This frustration and pain have given Saturn a bad reputation. But the planet's often misunderstood value lies in its very ability to evoke pain. Like the pain of an illness, it warns that something is wrong. Saturn doesn't create the problems, it merely illuminates them.
Growth is often accompanied by trepidation and turmoil. As the old self is pushed aside to make room for the new, you may feel weak and vulnerable. You want to move ahead, yet are frustrated by a fear of doing so, torn between a compelling urge to throw off everything connected with your past and an equally frantic need to cling to the familiar rather than brave the great unknown.
Even if your external world seems to be in order, your internal structure may feel as though it's being assaulted with a battering ram. Nervous conditions, irritability, depression, insomnia, and feelings of insecurity are common. Most people go through some sort of identity crisis.
Even though your Saturn Return may be disturbing, ultimately it reveals what you truly want and sweeps away the clutter that may have been impeding your progress. Your Saturn Return is a personal spring cleaning. No matter how difficult it seems to let go of inappropriate people and things, the first Saturn Return is the time to do it. For if lessons are not learned, the problems will come knocking again during your second Saturn Return at about age fifty-eight, when you are more set in your ways. Once the conflict is confronted, the tension usually subsides. You feel stronger and more capable of moving ahead.
Saturn Return is one of the most crucial turning points you ever experience, when you assume the greatest responsibility of all: responsibility for your own life.
THE END
Skye Alexander is a Massachusetts astrologer and the author of Hidden Agenda and Planets in Signs. Her web site www.shore.net offers astrological information and horoscopes, puzzles, contests, and more.
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| tomatoes and oceans |
| 04.30.04 (2:19 pm) [edit] |
OMG these tomatoes are so good - they taste like I just picked them out of my Mums garden!!
when I was on the deck earlier I heard some seagulls. I remember when we first moved here I saw some seagulls and told DH and he laughed and told me not to be dumb - we are thousands of miles from the ocean so they can't be seagulls! But they were - I guess they got lost lol as Alberta has a lot of seagulls. They make me homesick. I miss the ocean so much. I have always lived less than an hour from the seaside. In the summer my parents would take us almost every evening to wlak by the sea, play on the beach, have fish and chips out of newspaper sat on the promenade. I haven't seen the sea for 20 months.
I remember last year we were walking by the river valley and a boat went past and created waves by the edge of the river. I stood there with my eyes closed listening to the waves lap the side of the river and it just made me sooo homesick. I miss living on a little island like the UK. It is easy to forget how big Canada is until you want to go and see the sea. I'm sorry but lakes just don't cut it for me!!! Even if you call it 'the beach' it just isn't the same.
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| Gobby |
| 04.30.04 (2:08 pm) [edit] |
This is my other DD Susannah. She talks non stop. Her teacher finds it amazing that we call her gobby because she literally does not stop talking!! But at school she barely speaks!!!!! She is in love with one of her teachers - he was a student teacher in her class and now that he has left she calls him 'Andy' and she wants to go to the leisure centre where he works and see him. I have a feeling she is going to be trouble when she is a teen!!!
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| Scrapbooking |
| 04.30.04 (1:57 pm) [edit] |
Tomorrow is National Scrapbooking Day! So I just HAVE to find time to do some scrapbooking at some point tomorrow. I didn't bother with any of the organized crops as I have my crop night here on Friday, but I WILL find time to go to the scrapbook store tomorrow and maybe do a page or two!!
Anyone else scrapbook????
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| smelly feet |
| 04.30.04 (1:56 pm) [edit] |
I bought myself the greatest sandals for summer a couple of weeks ago - they look fab and they are so so so so comfy! BUT!!!!....................they smell really bad!! Or rather when I wear them for more than ten minutes my feet smell really bad. So these gorgeous shoes just won't get worn much after all :( because I just can't be bothered to keep having to wash my feet every time I get home.
On a good note - today is a good hair day :) I may not get many of them but today is one :)
We went to the park earlier to feed the ducks - they had all gone! There were just two anti-social geese there so we threw them some bread, they swam away and we came home again.
Abigail is asleep and I have been soaking up the rays out on my deck upstairs. I am so glad we got that deck. I love it. I just don't feel comfy on the family deck downstairs, but the one off of my bedroom is a little sun trap and sooo relaxing. I have two chairs out there - recliners - and a little table with a hurricane lamp on it - I also found a great little hanging candle holder in twirquiose and black and Lloyd put a hanger thing up for it so it hangs out there and the light catched the turquoise glass and the greeny blue glass beads that hang from it.
My hip hurts today - I still feel so ill generally. We are going to go to the health store tomorrow and see what supplements they recommend. Anyone have any tips or advice? I am very very fatigued all of the time. Ridiculously tired - the kind of tired you get in the early weeks of pregnancy. I am not depressed, I exercise, I eat fruit and veg - only two coffees a day if that! My iron levels are very low but I take iron supplements for that - although they don't make me feel any better.
I bought the nicest looking tomatoes yesterday - they are still on the vine and they just look so perfect! I am about to try them and I so hope I am not disappointed. Lloyd bought a coconut last night and it was horrid - tasted like soap.
I ordered the most gorgeous nail polish on Wednesday - from Corrinne my avon lady. It's called Ruby Slippers and it's bright red with glittery bits in it - just like the Ruby Slippers on The Wizard of Oz!!! I love to paint my toe nails in the summer and this polish will be just gorgeous. I never paint the nails on my hands because I hate the feeling of it. And being a mom my polish chips off after about 2 seconds of putting it on and then it takes me a week to reapply or take it off so I end up with horrid looking nails that are all chipped.
toast has popped so I am off to have a cheese and tomato toasty :)
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| toast |
| 04.30.04 (9:02 am) [edit] |
I just made Abigail some toast and I was starting to debate which is best - cold toast buttered or hot toast buttered. Wow I have such an exciting life!!!!
Anyway - I like my toast quite cold before I butter it so it stays crunchy and doesn't go soggy with melted butter. And then this started me thinking about the best toast I have ever eaten. It was in 1980 at the motel I stayed at with my parents in Orlando. The smell of that toast and the unusual butter taste - it was just wonderful! I can still smell and taste the stuff! That must have been pretty special toast to be remembered like that 24 years later!!!
I love having a big family. We have 4 kids but want more - Lloyd whispered to me last night in bed that we should have 10 more!! Yeah right!!! Although my friend Hen. is due to have number 12 in two weeks!! so I guess it is possible lol! But I don't think so. one or two more would be nice. The kids drive me nuts and there are days I could sit and cry but most of the time I love it. Like today. the boys are causing chaos with the flyers, Susannah (6) is walking around in a pink leotard, pink glittery tutu and pink fairy wings, Abigail is having fun squashing flies, shrieking 'I got it' then picking them up in tissue paper and running after susie with them!
This is Abby in the picture. She's 2 and when she's good she is very very good and sweet and beautiful and a darling, but shen she is bad she is HORRID!!!!! She is harder work than the other three put together ever have been!!!
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| 04.30.04 (8:30 am) [edit] |
stupid sunet pic in my header has vanished and now I need Lloyd to fix it for me and he isn't home until tonight :(
I'm hungry. Think I need brekky. Marmite on toast. Susannah and Abigail are munching bananas.
Lloyd wants to know what I wnat for Mothers Day next week. I suggested a subscription to CK magazine or something. I don't really need anything. maybe a firebox for my scrapbook albums. maybe a toffee crisp!!!! lol.
We sat in the bath last night and Lloyd was testing me on the driving thing and then we were chatting about sex. He feels sleepy after sex (like most men) and says this is because God is a man and he thinks that men deserve a sleep after all the hard work they put in after sex!!!!!! And that women often feel wide awake after sex because it gives them the energy they need to go and clean the house!!!! Yes DH thinks he's so funny!! But he says he likes to fall asleep on me after sex so I said how could he do that if I was cleaning the house - but then he says he would sleep anyway - it's Gods way!!!
As you can probably tell - we don't believe in God. Lloyd is probably me agnostic and I am more kind of atheist. I have days when I am agnostic and days when I am definitely atheist - like when my friends DH and her kids were killed. There is no God. There can be no God. If there is a God that can let things like that happen then he is sick and twisted.
Just my feelings ;) and too heavy for this time of day.
DH and I fall asleep holding hands every night. I love it. My ex was nothing like that. Lloyd is very tactile and holds my hand a lot - in the car, watching tv, and in bed :)
My ex used to grope my boobs when I was washing dishes. I hated it. It really annoyed me. Especially the thought that maybe it was me washing his dishes that turned him on!!!!! rotflmao!!!
He was a good DH most of the time - we just had little in common after 10 years of marriage.
Do you think there is something wrong with me? I just noticed that my ramblings here in my blog seem to changed topic a LOT. I tend to do that in real life too. And sometimes I will think the person I am talking to knows I have changed topic in my head and I will talk about the new thing - Lloyd looks at me as if to say 'am I supposed to know what you are talking about????'
Abigail wants toast so I have to go.
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| mad as hell |
| 04.30.04 (8:10 am) [edit] |
I just got mad at the boys - my oldest DS (11) always thinks he knows best. he delivers flyers - only for another two weeks thank god - and we have shown him the easiest way to do them. Have a big flyer on the end - have the others either in a circle or in a line and go along taking one of each put them in the big flyer on the end and then put that in the basket.
What does he do? he spreads the flyers all across the room and makes piles of them everywhere one of each flyer on each pile but covers almost the whole of downstairs in piles of flyers and then yells at his 2 year old sister for walking on them - geez she has to walk somewhere!! She can't get off the sofa!!!
So I picked up a pile of flyers and threw them across the floor messing up all the piles and told them to clear it up and take them to the garage and asked him why he doesn't seem capable of listening to me and why he always has to be right - we have told him this way is much slower and we don't have the space for such a stupid way of doing it and that it's abby's home too.
Never ever agree to let your kids deliver flyers!!!!! Learn from my mistakes!!!!
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| Just typical! |
| 04.29.04 (6:10 pm) [edit] |
I stress all day about the damn written test and DH calls and says he is leaving downtown at 4:30pm to come and get me. They close the registry office at 6pm and he works 30 minutes away. I told him I didn't think that was enough time but he's male so of course he is ALWAYS right!!!! So he comes home and we drive off to find the registry office which I had assumed he knew where it was. We get there at 5:40pm and he says there is plenty of time - but the line up is big and when I get to the front they tell me they stop testing at 5:30pm. I was mad as hell. I told him so! He had me stressed all afternoon and then stressed even more knowing by the time he got me there I would have to rush the test to get it done in time and then mad as hell that I was right (again!!! and of course!!!!)
So I sulked in the car for five minutes and then he obviously realised what a dork he was but didn't want to admit it, so he just asked if I fancied Chinese take out for dinner instead of cooking!!! Of course!!!!
I also told him he was buying me a LOT of chocolate to make up for the stress he caused me and also for the fact the kids have the day off of school tomorrow. Some women drink alcohol to get through the day as a mom lol and I take chocolate. It always helps. Even if I have to lock myself in the bathroom to eat it without having to share it.
So we got chinese and in the grocery store I picked up two magazines and a LOT of chocolate and DH paid. I said I would pay him back - but that never happens lol ;)
The chinese was awful. Yuck. I swear the chicken bits in that reddish sauce look like a plate of dead fetuses.
All in all a shit afternoon!
And all I can think of is that I want a Toffee Crisp. I want to be able to drive to the store and get a toffee crisp. But I am in this stupid country where I am not allowed to drive and they don't sell Toffee Crisps unless you go to the British Import Store.
So DH being his sweet self (most of the time I adore him........no actually all the time I adore him but sometimes he p*sses me off - but thats normal right????) anyway he says at the weekend we can drive to WEM and get a toffee crisp at the British Import store. Any man willing to drive for 40 minutes to a very busy mall on a Saturday just for a bar of chocolate imported and sold at ridiculous prices is a sweetheart. Despite his faults I am very lucky :)
The kids have gone to the park. They don't have school tomorrow so I said they could stay until 8:30pm. DH is bathing Abigail now and I have the downstairs all to myself again.
So I have another two days of stressing over this stupid driving test.
Ah the flyer lady just came with the flyers - Our last route will be May 12th. Roll on May 12th. I never want to see another store flyer again in my life lol!
Ooh Abby is out of her bath so I'd better go and say hi.
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| in two hours |
| 04.29.04 (2:47 pm) [edit] |
In two hours I will be sat doing my written driving test. please let me pass - I have studied the booka LOT but it just doesn't seem to want to go in. I think I am only allowed to get 2 questions wrong or something stupid like that. At least I know Lloyd failed first time. But I really have to get my licence by next week or our insurance goes up by $2000.
Abigail has been asleep for 2.5 hours - its been nice - no noise except the wind rattling around the house and it has given me time to study for this stupid test. Its crazy that you can step off a plane from a foreign country and drive for a YEAR and THEN they want you to take a test!!! Just give me the stupid goddamn licence!!!!!
I upgraded to Pro tblog - no idea what to do now. Lloyd says he will jazz up my website tonight for me and add pictures and stuff. I tried and ended up deleting something I spent 5 tbucks on!!!! It was nice seeing my tbucks jump up to 165 earlier!! I have the jazzy little clock on my page now - but didn't opt for any of those annoying flashing bits and firworks that follow the cursor or anything - they drive me nuts on other peoples pages.
I got a phone call from the library saying I have several books overdue. There should only be 1 but the kids obviously didn't give me ALL the books they had out.
some lady is mad at the rcmp for not charginga cabby who reversed into her sons stroller. She left her children unattended and the older child pushed the stroller with her baby in it into the path of a car reversing. The stroller was damaged but the baby was fine. She is mad that they won't charge the cabby. I actually don't think they should - it was an accident and to be honest they were all to blame, the mother, the cabby and the child. People are so fast to blame others these days to get as much money as they possibly can. The greed these days disgusts me.
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| too much |
| 04.29.04 (1:01 pm) [edit] |
bleeeeeaaaauuuuuurrrrgggh hh I ate too much of the cheesecake.
Its good cheesecake but urgh I feel bad now :(
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| handcuffs and home videos |
| 04.29.04 (12:07 pm) [edit] |
I am taking my written driving test this afternoon. I am not looking forward to it. Most of the rules here in AB make no sense to me.
I was up early and tidied through everywhere as it was my turn to host the Thursday coffee group. Linda wasn't coming, I didn't invite Jaime, Susan didn't show up. When I called Penny she told me that her Son has been in hospital all week and they are exhausted. Monica came over and we had a nice morning chatting about anything and everything while the little ones played playdough and with the tea sets etc etc
I really like Monica - I think she's really interesting and despite being a strict catholic she is also very open minded and down to earth. She is 45 and used to be a travel agent so she has travelled a lot - especially to the UK which she loves.
Sometimes I think it's odd that I have nothing in common with many people my own age but loads in common with a lady 12 years older. I have always been like that - even in my early twenties my closest girl friends were much older. Lorraine was 40 when I was 25 and we were great friends. But then Lorraine was mad.
My friend Lorraine homeschooled her girls when I homeschooled mine - she also breastfed them until they were about 5 years old. She would do crazy things like answer the door to Jehovah's Witnesses naked!! She would tell them she was in a cult and they would leave very fast and not return :) one day she died her hair and it went wrong and we went to see The Blair Witch Project that night and out for dinner and she wore her hair in this head scarf thing and told everyone she had leukhaemia and had lost all her hair!
One day her in laws came over for a family party and they videoed some of it - in the evening they all sat down to watch the video and it cut out near the end to show her and her DH having sex!!!!! rotflmao!! And another time her oldest daughter found some handcuffs and put them on her little sisters ankles. They were tight and they couldn't find the key so they tried everything and then decided to go to the fire station and have them cut off. They were hurting the girl though so Lorraine put sanitary towels between the ankles and the cuffs to cushion it a bit - so they go to the station with the sanitary towels flapping about from these handcuffs around her 4 year olds legs!!!! too funny! And the firemen didn't tell the girls off but instead told Lorraine off and said that she and her DH should keep their 'toys' in a safer place in the bedroom ;)
So anyway. Abigail was up at 5am with Lloyd today so she is now sleeping and I am so hungry so am off to have some lunch. I have a quiet afternoon now until the children get home and then Lloyd gets home to take me for my test. I am going to relax and then walk Abby to the park to feed the ducks and check the mail on the way.
I made a cheesecake last night so I think I may have a piece for lunch. I am a big cheesecake fan!
Kids are off school tomorrow so this is my last little bit of peace and quiet until Monday.
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| 04.28.04 (7:06 pm) [edit] |
In December, one sunday evening I got a phone call from a friend who never calls me. She was very quiet but obviously crying. She told me that a friend of ours had been in a car accident and both her children and her DH had been killed.
I laughed. She had to be joking right? That kind of thing doesn't happen!
It did happen.
The next day I went to the hospital to see my friend who had survived the accident with a few scratches and a couple of broken ribs. What do you say to someone who lost their whole life in seconds? I hugged her and told her how sorry I was. She cried and said ' we only lived together 5 days' I hugged her back and just 'I know'.
The memorial service for the children was just heartbreaking. They had been 12 and 11. pre-teens who drove their mom crazy as all our kids do. It was a lovely service - the place was packed solid and the music was just oh so fitting - Shania Twain and the like. People read stories the children had written at school and told about their memories of the children - some funny. Then a group of us girlfriends were asked to go up and stand with my friend while she read her children one last bedtime story. We were all a quivering bawling mess ............except my friend who made it to the last page before she broke down. The book was 'I'll Love you Forever' by Robert Muncsh - my own Daughters favourite.
There were a lot of people around my friend over that first week or so - her room was crowded when I visited and I heard she was never alone. I stayed away for a while but saw her at the moms group party - which turned into a kind of supportive get together with her where we all took a gift and placed it in a basket for her - I agve her a journal and some magazines about journalling for grief. And a nice pen to go with it. Writing has always helped me and it had been something we had discussed in the past.
Christmas came and went - I thought of calling her on Christmas Day but assumed everyone would and she would be sick of it - I found out later that NOT ONE person had called her. I will never forgive myself for not calling that day. :(
A couple of weeks into January my friend called me and said she would like me to go and spend the evening with her and talk - so I went not knowing what to expect - we hadn't been close the last year. We had a really nice evening - we looked through all the cards and letters she had been sent and she took me in to see her childrens urn by her bed. We also laughed and chatted about other things and she told me that everyone had kind of dumped her and no one was around any more. I was stunned - all these close friends and people who had been all around her after the accident were no where to be seen - even those interviewed on tv who had made out that they were so close to her.
Anyway - we became really good friends over the last few months and she came over to my house a lot and my children adore her - she even babysat for me and Lloyd so we could have a day out alone. I think being around a busy family helped her get over the early months.
We have become really close since the accident - I am so sad that it took the accident for us to get to know each other so well. I can't imagine what it must be like to lose your husband and both your children like that. She also lost her home and her job because she had moved into her DH's home a week before and given up her job to become a sahm a week before.
I don't believe in God - I don't believe in 'a plan' or 'a reason' nothing and no one could be so cruel.
But I do know that my friend is doing great - she will get through this. She is a strong person and she does have a future. A different one than she had planned and one with great sadness that will never go away but she will be happy again too.
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Well I am sick to death of this damn flyer delivery job the boys are doing - we have only done it for two weeks and already it is just not worth the hassle - it's driving me nuts - no money is worth this!! Especially the crap 0.003cents per flyer or something they pay!!!!
So I called Addie and left a message for her to call me and I am going to tell her we are resigning and giving her two weeks notice
It is 8pm almost and Chris has been delivering the damn things since he got home from school at 4:10pm and he still hasn't finished.
I am not having our whole summer spoilt because we have to be home to sort and deliver these stupid things three times a week.
I feel so much better now I have made the decision.
Lloyd will be home from work soon - at last!!! The kids are almost ready for bed - Abby needs her teeth brushed but is in her PJ's and Susie and Laurie are showered ready.
I still have to make the lunches for school tomorrow - I hate doing the packed lunches for school. In scotland they had a cooked meal at school each day and that was so much easier than me having to make lunches when I am so tired in the evening.
I get tired a lot - I have very low iron levels and nothing I do seems to help - I increase it in my diet and I take supplements but still my iron levels stay low and the doctor doesn't seem to know why - he just recommensds the supplements. He says its my iron levels that make me so tired and lethargic.
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| 100 things about me! |
| 04.28.04 (5:40 pm) [edit] |
1. I have two sisters
2. my sisters named me.
3. boys at school would sing 'Jane the pain from 8 Font Lane' and think it was funny!
4.My dad wanted to call me Emma so thats my middle name and he calls me Emma.
5. I suck my thumb - still
6. I was a brosette
7. my favourite colour is turquoise
8. I'm Aquarian, with a cancer moon and cancer ascendent. I love astrology
9. I believe in ghosts and lived in a haunted house.
10. I love marmite on toast
11. I grew up with an Irish Red Setter called Kelly
12. my favourite school subject was English
13. I hate the telephone
14. I hate mornings
15. I passed my driving test first time when I was 24
16. I always wanted 4 children
17. I love vegetables raw or cooked
18. I am going to see Sarah Mclachlan in concert in September
19. I kissed the testicles of the bull on wall street in NYC
20. I don't talk to my oldest sister any more.
21. I love to swim
22. I am a hopeless singer and that makes me sad
23. I have little patience and a bad temper. This is because I have mars in aries.
24. I have never tried an illegal drug - not even hash. Not because I don't want - just because I have never been in the situation.
25. I don't smoke
26. my favourite alcoholic drink is Baileys over ice
27. I love to read. My favourite author is jane green
28. Right now I am reading Nicholas Sparks - his entire collection.
29. I always wanted to live in America
30. I had never visited Canada before the day I moved here to live.
31. I have a ginger tabby kitten called Bailey
32. I love chocolate
33. I was anorexic in my late teens/ early twenties
34. I weigh 150lbs
35. I was a Brownie as a child - a Sprite.
36. I always wanted to learn ballet.
37. I can't play a musical instrument.
38. I believe life is too short to be wasted.
39. I do not believe in God
40. I do believe in angels
41. I was a psychiatric nurse
42. I breastfed my daughter until she was 2
43. I homeschooled for several years
44. I co sleep with my babies
45. I like yard sales
46. I hate clutter
47. I love candles and burn scented candles a lot
48. I like my feet
49. I can't grow my nails - they break off
50. I love sex - especially with Lloyd.
51. I am a great photographer
52. I am a good friend - I try to be anyway.
53. I am funny
54. I don't watch tv but did watch the Apprentice and enjoyed it.
56. my first car was a brand new peugeot 306
57. I always wanted to be a cheerleader but they didn't have them in the UK when I was a teen.
58. I can twirl a baton well!
59. I love cheesecake
60. I love to fly
61. I am very creative
62. I snore
63. I suffer from migraines and take IMitrex for it.
64. I look for the northern lights every night before bed.
65. I love staring into the flames of a fire.
66. I buy far too many magazines
67. I have never seen a tornado
68. I have been to France 3 times
69. I think it should be illegal to sell fireworks except to professional displays.
70. I have lived in 17 different houses since I was born.
71. I was born in Yeovil, Somerset, England
72. I am scraed of spiders
73. I hate nightclubs, flashing lights and loud music.
74. I had sex on a beach with an ex boyfriend and then shouted at a policeman that I wasn't wearing knickers afterwards!!! I was very drunk.
75. I have never had a one night stand.
76. I can touch my nose to my knee without bending my knees
77. Lloyd massages my shoulders and neck every night before bed - doctors orders to prevent my migraines.
78. My good friend Julie died suddenly a year ago from cancer. I miss her.
79. I think I will die young - I hope I am wrong.
80. I would marry Lloyd tomorrow if I could
81. I always knew I would have an affair and divorce my ex.
82. I am fab with houseplants. Especially African Violets and Poinsettias which I keep alive forever!!!
83. I miss ploughmans pickle and Marks and Spencers from back home.
84. I love preparations for Christmas but find the day a let down!
85. My typing is horendous but my spelling is fabulous - always was from the time I started school!
86. It makes me mad when people use the wrong their/there or to/too or they say 'I could of' instead of 'I could have'
87. I love to vacuum but hate to clean the kitchen work tops but I do constantly and get through a bottle of kitchen cleaner every week.
88. I can't read library books - I just can't read tatty second hand books. I have to buy new. I have no idea why. I also hate to read hardbacked books.
89. I love to choose gifts for people.
90. I love Meg Ryan movies
91. I had never eaten Kraft dinner/ mac n cheese before last summer.
92. I love brussel sprouts
93. Tom Cruise is soooo NOT my type
94. I think Richard Gere in Unfaithful is INCREDIBLY sexy - he reminds me of Lloyd who is aging extremely well :)
96. I sometimes get really bad headaches after sex.
97. I like playing scrabble with Lloyd.
98. I overcompensate for being shy by being extra loud and vocal and talking far too much.
99. I love Indian food
100. The scene from National Lampoons 'Van Wilder' movie where they masturbate the dog and use the gunky stuff to fill donuts for the med students - that scene has put me off of Boston Creme donuts forever and I can't watch it without wanting to vomit - so Lloyd rewinds that scene again and again and laughs hysterically at my reaction!!!! grooossssssss!!!!
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| sleeeeeeeeep!! |
| 04.28.04 (4:22 pm) [edit] |
I can't believe how sleepy I am this afternoon. I went up for a bath while Abby was napping. Stupidly I ran the bath while I was pottering about and when I went to get in I realised I had the cold tap on too much and the bath was cold but all the hot water had been used up :( I got in anyway and shivered for a while until the water was hot again. I studied the driving handbook again but don't think any of it went in. Just too sleepy!
I was thinking more about the bathroom thing. Another thing about men and the toilet! Us Moms, we have young kids with us all day - we never get privacy. I sit in the mornings having a sh*t with Abby stood next to me demanding me to sing or read or play ball. So I sit there and sing Barneys 'I love you' song and read her Dora book to her and shout Swiper No Swiping for her again and again - and we play catch with the ball and the deed is done. But Lloyd (and my ex so I am assuming most men) can't seem to do that. Lloyd says he can't have Abigail in the room with him when he has to go because he can't 'concentrate' with her in there!!! Concentrate?????? On what??????? He needs to concentrate to have a crap??????? Is that an excuse or is he serious???? Does this mean that all single Fathers are constipated and totally bunged up from years of not being able to go because of lack of privacy???????
Lloyd - he's a darling really. I love him so much. He makes me laugh with his funny little ways and he's good enough to deal with me and all my baggage lol! He treats all of my children as if they were his own. He really does. We are a totally blended family. He doesn't call my older three his step children - he says ' my boys' and 'my girls' when he talks to people about them. He is a great dad. I really really hope they appreciate him.
I worry that if anything happened to me they would go back to their real father. that would not be good for them and it would be so sad for Lloyd and Abigail. And I really hope that once they are grown up and something happens to me that they take the time to be with Lloyd. I think they will - they are great kids.
Laurie is upstairs watching Oprah - MaryKate and Ashley are on there - he adores them. My Son is 8 and already sleeps with a calendar of MK and AShley under his pillow - like a teenage boy with Penthouse magazine under his bed lol!
Lloyd is working until about 8pm tonight. I can't wait until he gets home - I need a hug. I am exhausted.
I weighed myself this morning. It kind of got the day off to a bad start. I gained 7lbs kind of over night!!!! I have walked a LOT lately and haven't been eating as much yet I gained 7lbs - I think the scales are crap actually. Thats my excuse and I am sticking to it. I can stand on the scales in 8 different places in the bedroom and bathroom and each time my weight will be different by up to 10lbs. Even I can't gain 10lbs in the few seconds it takes to walk across my bedroom floor!
Susie is watching Cheaper By the Dozen for the zillionth time.
I think I'm going to make a start on that 100 things about me!!!
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| men can't aim!!! |
| 04.28.04 (11:53 am) [edit] |
Wendy gave me a ride to the group this morning and on the way home we were discussing how men can't seem to aim right and end up peeing all over the floor and seat and NOT in the actual toilet! What is it with that? I expect it kind of from kids but adults????? Lloyd says it's because he's too big to control ;) roflmao!!! Wendy says her DH is now 45 and still hasn't learnt to aim right so they just never grow out of it!!!
The group was good - Jaime did her homes and interiors thing and a few people bought stuff. We had coffee and cookies and chatted about this and that and Wendy told us about her trip to calgary and her night out at the nightclub and what goes on there! We all cringed knowing it is just a few years before our own Daughters are out there doing this stuff :(
I got a comment from someone!! My first comment! Actual it was just someone saying hi but geez it was exciting seeing that someone had read my blog and left a comment! Anyone reading this say hi and leave a comment and make my day ;)
I have to take my written driving test tomorrow. I am crapping myself literally - I have no idea why. I have been driving for 8 years and driving in Canada for over a year so you would think I would be relaxed about the whole thing but I am not. I hate having to ask people to give me a ride to things and I hate losing my indepenence so I HAVE to pass and I also have my gorgeous brand new Eddie Bauer Expedition to drive around in all summer - and yet it is stuck in the garage all day far too much because I haven't been allowed to drive for two weeks. If I came from a country that drove on the right I could probably just swap my licence but because Britain decided to drive on the left I have to take a test from scratch :( seems crazy to me when I have been driving here for a year already.
I drank too much coffee this morning and I can't stop peeing now!!! But geez at least I can aim right lol!
Talking of coffee - I have always been lucky with men where coffee is concerned. I grew up with a Dad who would bring me a cup of coffee each morning before he left for work. Then my first husband always made me a cup of coffee in the mornings. And now I have sweet Lloyd who makes me a coffee in my Tim Hortons thermal mug each morning at 6am and leaves it by my bed so that when I wake up at 7:10am each day it is still hot for me :)
I am spoilt yes. Always have been and I'm quite happy for things to stay that way hehehehehehe
Well my toast just popped up and I should put Abby for a nap and tidy this place up a bit and then when Abby wakes up we can go and feed the ducks on the pond for a while. Lloyd is working late tonight so I can make an easy dinner for the kids. Hopefully Lloyd will pick us up something on the way home
The boys have to deliver their flyers tonight. What a bloody nightmare that is!!! 12 flyers have to be sorted and delivered to 140 houses. 3 times a week and sometimes there are 17 flyers!! All for about $80 a month grrrrr they sort them in the front room and it takes about 1.5 hours and it takes them almost 4 hours to deliver them because they are so slow at it. And I have black finger marks all over the walls of the front room :( But they are so excited about getting their first pay check. $80 is a lot of money for a child. Lloyd says it's good for them to work but to me it's just a hassle and there is no way we are doing it through the winter.
I really should go and do some cleaning and put the washing in the dryer. Did I make the bed today??? I can't remember so I should go upstairs and check that too.
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| what about me? |
| 04.28.04 (8:05 am) [edit] |
I see that other people do a kind of little intro about themselves in case anyone bothers to read their blog - which I don't think anyone has except for DH and even he fell asleep half way through lol! So anyways...................
I am Jane. I'm 32 but inside I guess I still feel about 16 and stuck in the confused teen years. I don't feel grown up yet. When I go to parent teacher conferences I still find it bizarre that I am the parent. I still feel it should be my mum and dad talking to my teachers. Where did the time go???? I swear I must have skipped a decade.
I have 4 children. I live with my partner Lloyd - who says he wants to marry me but it never seems to happen. One day. Although we did say 'I do' last year - kind of - we had to swear under oath that we are common law partners. Why the hell he didn't just marry me I don't know lol! Lloyd and I grew up together. He was kind of the boy next door - or rather the boy over the fence at the end of my garden! We grew up in England. We lost touch. I married someone else - a nice bloke while we were married but he turned into a total dickhead the second I left. I had three children with my first husband. I fell in love with Lloyd via email and took the big decision to leave my current DH and start a new life with Lloyd. I was a bitch yes but life is just too short to stay unhappy. My ex is now married and has a new baby and seems to think that means he doesn't have to bother with his older three children - like I said - dickhead!!!
So I am 32, divorced, living in sin with 4 children from 2 different fathers lol! sounds good huh???
Actually it is! We lived in Edinburgh for two years which I loved and then we emigrated to Alberta, Canada. Its ok - the people are weird, the food is crap but cost of living is low and the quality of life is good. Education is fab here so I guess we will stay until the kids are out of school....................who knows
My kids are 10, 8, 6, and 2. We would like more. Insane??? probably. I have two boys and two girls. How perfect is that?
I am little - not quite 5' tall but I don't mind my height - it has never been an issue for me. Hasn't stopped me doing anything (except being an air stewardess lol but these days I can see that it isn't the glam job I thought it was at 16!!!)
I trained as a psychiatric nurse in the UK. I would never go back to that now. I enjoyed it then, but with a bigger family I would feel 'all cared out' if I took a caring job.
I am a stay at home mom now. Stupid name because I don't 'stay at home'. I should stay at home more actually as the house is a total mess today because I ahven't been home this week to do anything! I haven't gone out to work since my first child was born. I am lucky that I don't have to.
DH is in IT - he has his own company and he does automated testing - he goes all over the world doing it - Holland last year wich was hell with the time difference.
I have grey eyes and brown hair which I colour constantly because I get bored.
I scrapbook and it's an obsession - I have been scrapbooking for a year and have over filled 7 albums!!! I have a very addictive personality. Like these blogs - my current obsession - I read them constantly and write in this one constantly. I wish I could get obsessional about something like exercise. I weigh about 15lbs too much. Not huge but bigger than I would like. But not enough that it makes me want to put effort into losing it. I'm not lazy - I walk a lot and my house is normally immaculate so I don't sit still too often. I don't eat all that much either. My weight just seems to stay the same no matter how much or how little I eat so I don't worry about it too often.
Well I have to go out in 10 minutes so I have to end this now - think I will write more this afternoon when I get home.
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| cat or dog? |
| 04.28.04 (7:07 am) [edit] |
I swear Bailey my cat thinks she's a dog. She loves people so much. Just wants to be with us all the time. The kids just left for school and she was running around their heels and ran out of the door and up the road with them. Yesterday in the rain she went out with the girls and played in the puddles and then came in with them when they were bored. She sits in the window and watched us leave and then runs to the door to meet us when we get home.
Last night Lloyd was painting the kitchen (Laurel Leaf - a nice sage green colour) and Bailey was with him constantly checking he was doing everything right ;)
She is just the sweetest most loving cat ever and the perfect choice for our big family :)
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| The human mind ;) |
| 04.27.04 (4:35 pm) [edit] |
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Amzanig huh?
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| my song |
| 04.27.04 (4:26 pm) [edit] |
These are the lyrics to Edwin Mccain's song - the song that I just love to hear - the song that reminds me of driving around Scotland in Lloyds TVR, holding his hand, going for dinner in Browns on George Street and soaking up the sun (on the rare days it did shine in Edinburgh) in Princes Street Gardens. It reminds me of now too - of all that I have and how lucky I am. Even on crappy PMS filled days when I feel like sh*t and soak in self pity, I can put that song on and know that really and truly I could not ask for more than I have right now. I have the most amazing man in my life - a man who truly does fit Dr Phils comment when he says that a man should be able to say that if his wife is ina room with 1000 other women, she can honestly say to herself that there isn't another woman in that room treated as good as she is at home. I have 4 amazing, wonderfully healthy and happy and clever children who love school, have lots of friends and help a LOT at home. I have a gorgeous home - cosy and warm and spacious, and a fab car that gets me wherever I want to go. I have my health and I most of the time I am really really happy. No ones life is perfect but I have a lot to be grateful for and when I hear the following song I know its just perfect for my life, my marriage (especially my marriage - my Lloyd, my childhood friend who I am now so lucky to be spending my life with), my kids - everything!!!
I Could Not Ask for More
Lying here with you • Listening to the rain • Smiling just to see the smile upon your face • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments • I'll remember all my life • I found all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Looking in your eyes • Seeing all I need • Everything you are is everything to me • These are the moments • I know heaven must exist • These are the moments I know all I need is this • I have all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more than this time together • I could not ask for more than this time with you • Every prayer has been answered • Every dream I have's come true • And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be • Here with you here with me • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments I'll remember all my life • I've got all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Chorus • I could not ask for more than the love you give me 'Coz it's all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more
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| patience |
| 04.27.04 (1:08 pm) [edit] |
I wish I had more patience. I wish I didn't get angry so fast and just lose it as much as I do. I wish I was mellow and laid back about everything. I would be a much better mother. Much better wife. I get so pissed off about the stupidest things.
geez I was so full of energy earlier but that 90 minute walk has knocked me out and I just want to sleep! Maybe when the kids are home I'll soak in the bath for an hour and doze.
Thomas the Tank Engine is on - I swear he's on drugs. The way his eyes are so wide and roll about :D
I'm sure there is something I could be doing - should be doing. The f*cking ironing for a start. Oh how I LOVE to iron (not!!!) :roll:
At least the rain makes me feel like I'm back home lol!
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| back before the rain |
| 04.27.04 (12:50 pm) [edit] |
So, I walked to sarahs house with Abigail (2) in the stroller. I took a few wrong turnings on the footpath so it took longer than it would normally but I was still there on time so thats good. It was hot and sunny when we walked there and on the way home it was cloudy and I could see the dark skies coming across from the city.
I walked past the park and spotted Lauries coat hanging on the tree by the swings still - he left it there Sunday!!! :roll: I grabbed that before the rain. Abigail fell asleep on the way home so I left her in the garage in the stroller and had some lunch and called Lloyd to say hi. He went out for lunch to an Indian restaurant! I am so jealous! He said the food was great so maybe he can pick up take out on Friday!!!
It was nice catching up with Sarah. She was experimenting with her baking so I got to try her new choccy drop things - chinese noodles, almonds and raisins in a chocolate and peanut flavoured coating!!! Mmmmm - tasted like a cadbury's Picnic bar.
She's considering homeschooling her kids so we chatted about that. We talked about the alternatives in the area and about which age is best to start school. We talked about how weird Canadians are. It's nice catching up with another Brit every now and then :)
The rain has started!!! Its dark out - and it's got colder all of a sudden. I'm glad I'm home. sarah offered for me to stay for lunch but I wanted to get home. It never rains here so it's quite nice really. I have brought all the cushions in from the deck.
I'm bored now! Maybe I'll scrapbook for a while. Either that or eat my way through the cupboards ;)
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| I hate mornings! |
| 04.27.04 (6:51 am) [edit] |
BLURGH!!!!!! I am really not a morning person! It is so much a struggle to get out of bed in the mornings. The kids come and wake me up at 7:10 which gives me enough time to wake up and drag my butt downstairs to say goodbye as they leave for the bus at 7:30. I sit by the computer and read my emails (this morning Carole Anne wrote to say she had had a premonition that I was pregnant!!!!)
So the kids just left and I have to go and get showered and ready to leave as I opted to walk to Sarahs for coffee this morning. Its very grey outside - there is a 20% chance of rain this morning - will probably pee down between 9am and 10am when I am walking up to Highland.
I called Lloyd at work to say hi and he was worried because I called so early! He normally just gets a groggy sounding email from me in the mornings. Just wanted to say hi. Last night was nice. It was so warm, still 18c when we went to bed, so we lit the hurricane lamp out on the deck off of the bedroom and we sat out there talking for a while. Then when we finally went to bed there was a giant tiger mozzie on the ceiling above the bed. Lloyd climbed up to squish it and every time it moved her jumped like crazy as if he was terrified - my hero ;) too funny! He caught it anyway and we analysed it lol - definitely a mozzie - the first of the year in our house and it's only April. Last year they all seemed to aim for me. One day I got 13 bites!!! In one day!!! bastards!!! Lloyd bought me calamine lotion but it didn't help too much :( so many summer nights spent scratching. Yuck. Another thing I miss about back home!!! No mozzies!!!! :cry:
Well, Abby is colouring. Barney is on the tv - I really should go and grab a shower and start getting ready to go out.
I noticed a poo on the side of the litter tray lid just now!!! Bailey is the sweetest but geez she is just like a child - looks like she only just made it to the litter tray to go and a bit popped out before she was properly in!!!! roflmao!!! delightful!!!!
Oh well, my day can only get better!!!
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| dreams |
| 04.26.04 (7:54 pm) [edit] |
Was just reading about someones dream in another tblog and it made me think about my dreams. I get the weirdest dreams ever - when I expllain them to people they look at me stunned. My dreams are liek action packed movies - always in colour and always full of the most amazing action scenes and detail.
It started when I was young. When I was about 8 I had a dream that Uri Geller came to stay at my house and instead of bending sppons he could make his head change shape - and he changed the shape of his head to one of those weird stumps you get if you pull a dolls head off - liek if you pull Barbies head off. Freaked me out! I was 8!!
Then more recent dreams I have had have been like when I was taking a photograph of a pretty farm cottage in the meadows in England - it was down in the valley and there was a rainbow and just pretty flower filled meadows. So I took the picture but instead of a camera I used a potato - a baked potato. Then to get the picture you cut the potato in half and the image is in the soft fluffy flesh of the potato - I can remember the picture so well - all the colours were muted like a watercolour.
Then over the last month I have had three dreams in which babies or children have died. Two of the dreams were babies dying of cot death. The third dream was that I was in like this room thing and a native man was euthanising people. This girl of about 7 was dead on the table and I was next in line to be euthanised. I had had the first procedure and was waiting to get up on the table. He would put this weird dragonfly wing shaped bandage on your finger and then prick the finger with something that would put you to sleep - forever. But I didn't want to die - I had changed my mind. He seemed really disappointed and said it was difficult as I had already had the first treatment. But I didn't want that weird winged bandage on and didn't want to die. Then I was ina room full of moths flying everywhere and Llyd had been headhunted by a big company. The boss loved him to begin with but Lloyd got carried away with the money and the flash car ad clothes and then didn't do the work so his boss got tired of it and fired him. Lloyd got home in a red convertible and this hideous bright red suit with flashy gold badges all over it. I told him he was fired for not doing the work and all he was interested in was his nice suit and if I liked it!
I think I will start recording all my dreams so I can remember them and see if there is a pattern. I always tell Lloyd about them but then they are forgotten and some of them are so weird. :?
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| Monday 26th April |
| 04.26.04 (7:40 pm) [edit] |
Busy busy day - gorgeous weather OMG it was about 26c!!!! Sooooo so nice and hot! I got a tan line where my t-shirt was! Woohoo after almost 7 months of snow it feels good ;)
I really didn't want to get out of bed this morning. I love my bed. It is just the best bed ever - sooooo comfy. Soooo big and M&S soft soft bedding and goose down duvet. Makes mornings even harder to face!
House was a tip this morning so I spent the whole morning cleaning grooooan - checking mail every now and then. Got an email from Henrietta which was such a good surprise. She is expecting her 12th baby in 3 weeks time. Most people would think she is crazy but a huge part of me is just so jealous!!!!!
Abigail stuck her hand in her nappy and pulled out a poohy finger - lovely! She has never done that before! Cleaned her up and she went out to play in the sandpit - came in a few minutes later with her hand covered in poo - this time it wasn't her own - Bailey has pooed in the damn sandpit. So we had to throw all that away again and scrub the sandbox out and buy new sand. I love Bailey so much but STUPID CAT get out of my little girls sandpit!!!! It is NOT a litter tray!!!
Jaime and Shawna came over just before 1pm and we went for a walk all around Clarkdale and stopped at the playground so the children could go on the swings. Jaime seems to think this business of hers is really going to take off - Shawna and I can't see that happening - those home based businesses and party plan sales are just so over done - kind of like Reality tv - they've been done to death!
When we got home Jaime headed for home but Shawna came in for some juice and to chat for a while. Kaitlyn is just the sweetest - the way she sucks her fingers and smiles her shy smile!!! I like Shawna - I have to be careful saying things like that because as soon as I say I think someone is nice they turn out to be psycho - what is it with Canadians???? But so far she seems really nice and we are meeting up on Friday at the lake for a walk and to meet Monica T. Now THAT will be interesting - putting a face to a name at last. Can't wait to see what she is like - this woman with the oh so perfect lifestyle with her boats and trucks and big houses and hoiliday homes etc etc. We shall see!
After Shawna left Mandy arrived - wasn't sure how that would go as she looked really unsure when she arrived. But I tried to just be me and soon we were chatting like old times - we sat out on the deck in the sunshine and caught up with each others news. She stayed until Lloyd got home and when we got out by the car she gave me a big hug and told me never to be worried about speaking the truth again. She seems to be doing ok - moving into her own place and seeing her therapist. Next week will be a tough week - she moves into her own place and will ahve to sort through all the childrens belongings. Michele is going to make a quilt from some of their clothes for her. Then it would have been Cam's 12th birthday next week - and then of course Mothers Day. A tough week for her.
She looks great though - fab hairstyle and make up. She gave me Ashley and Camerons ice skates for the children to use. I wish they were just ones they had grown out of rather than ones never used :(
After Lloyd got home we went grocery shopping - at Stupidstore. I hate shopping there but they sell the things we need and most Canadian grocery stores are useless so its the best of a bad deal. I end up walking around there moaning about 'this stupid backward country'.
There are so many things I love about living here - but there are also many things I hate about it here. One of those things being CANADIANS roflmao!!!! Not that I'm generalising there or anything hehehehe.
So it's now almost 9pm and the children are finally in bed, Lloyd and I can finally sit down and relax. My day is done.
And of course there is tomorrow. I am having coffee at Sarahs. Lloyd is taking the car and I said I would walk to Sarahs - not too far - an hours walk maybe - but of course after 26c heatwave today tomorrow they say there will be showers!! How typical is that?????
My feet smell. Those summer shoes I bought are so comfy but they make your feet smell really bad - which leaves me with another dilemma tomorrow - to wear shoes that look good but smell really bad or wear shoes that don't look so great or feel so comfy but don't make my feet stink!!!! Oh the dilemma's of a stay at home mom!!!!!
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| Sunday 25th April 2004 |
| 04.25.04 (6:52 pm) [edit] |
:?: So, I'm trying out a weblog - I want to start my journal again but not at the old site - maybe this will work? Lloyd worked this morning. Crazy man was up at 5am and ready to leave at 5:30. Abigail woke up with him so she had a busy day! I slept off and on until 8am - occasionally Abby came in and put her cold feet on me or asked me to read Dora - at 7am??? no way!
The boys spent the morning delivering their flyers Took them about 3 hours or so today. Susie and Abby played with the playdough and I had a lovely lazy morning - made toast and coffee and sat on the upstairs deck in the sunshine - it was hot by 9am out there. It was lovely. Called Mum and Dad and chatted for a while - they were babysitting Isaac while Clare did a car boot sale. I wonder what they will think of yard sales!
Lloyd brought me coffee and a bagel home from Tims this afternoon. We drove over to the scrapbook store while the children were at the park. Bumped into Sarah there and we arranged to have coffee on Tuesday. It will be nice to catch up.
After that we drove around Shadow Ridge before taking Abigail to the swings to meet the others. Laurie and Chris went off to some boys house and when they came back I heard the other boy say 'don't tell your parents what you saw in my room!' too funny! He had a calendar with barely clad women on it ;) Laurence was giggling.
Back home and we cleared out the garage - threw out the old sleds and so much junk! I have also washed all the winter wear like gloves and scarves and it is good to pack them away until next Fall.
The weather was so nice today - going to be around 22c tomorrow. which will be gorgeous!
So what am I grateful for today?
1. my lovely deck off of my bedroom - sitting out there in the sunshine this morning.
2. Having 4 healthy and happy and clever children who choose to spend their days outside playing and not in front of a tv or playstation.
3. Lloyd - for the way he makes me feel about me - for the way he makes me laugh. For his endless patience. For the way he is just so happy having a family and a home to look after. For the way he gets upset about things like Caron Keatings funeral just like me. Because I know if it was me sick he would also drive me through the night to take me where I wanted to be.
4. That I have three new pairs of size 11 capri's :) woohoo!!! Gotta love Cotton Ginny!
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